posted on May, 14 2018 @ 04:19 PM
I had a moment of unreal clarity last week. Enlightenment, if you will. It was beautiful.
My higher self talked to me and I heard what he said.
"What the # are you doing?" was the sentence silently uttered.
I heard it and thought to myself "I don't actually know but I think now would be a good time to stop this stupid behaviour." I'm down to 40% of my
usual daily intake of alcohol. I've been drinking for the last 15 years and heavily for the last 10. I did rehab last year but didn't last 5 days
because I couldn't stomach the prison food. (No really, someone told me it's the same food they serve to people in prison. Mass-produced, reheated and
quite awful when you're picky like me. Plus I can cook when I make the effort) The rehab itself was fine.
So, here I am a year later doing it all by myself. (IMHO the best way) Slow and gentle steps will lead me to the place I used to be and the person I
used to be before it all started. It's been a long time coming but things are slowly starting to come back together again. I start the day with my
usual coffee, drink one or two beers to steady my nerves and things feel like they are on the up.
ETA Beer number 5 has just been opened but it is just gone 11 pm.
edit on 14/5/18 by LightSpeedDriver because: ETA