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originally posted by: JustMike
...I'd take you up on you BOGOF offer, but for two small issues: one is that at the moment I don't have the ten thousand tons of .999-fine gold which would be the minimum you might accept, the second is that I don't have the room to house them and you and your wife: obviously, part of the deal would have to be that we take you all! ...
If you've wondered why LookingForABetterLife has been giving updates on me it's because he never stopped writing to me, even when he knew I didn't have internet and couldn't respond on a regular basis. He has been a blessing (as you all have) and I will admit that I've lurked on occasion just to feel the love. I didn't feel able to talk about anything for a long time and also didn't want to start to depend on The Shed when I wasn't sure if I would continue to have access to the internet. I just couldn't handle any more loss so I stayed silent but I have been feeling your love (and sending it back to you all).
originally posted by: JustMike
a reply to: LookingForABetterLife
I really don't know what to say. As you might know, I've been absent a lot in the past year or two, so I must have missed you talking about your wife before. I am so sorry that you were bereaved, but "sorry" is so inadequate a word.
Just can't imagine what you felt when she passed away, or what you feel now. I hear what you say (or have written) but it doesn't really translate into terms I can understand. I mean, I've been told by various professionals that I need to prepare myself for the inevitable with my wife and her condition, but even as that day draws closer and the signs of that get bigger, I just don't know how to "prepare" myself. How can I prepare for the incomprehensible, of being alone after we've been together for almost a quarter of a century? Especially when right now, she is sitting just a few feet away.
She has no idea what is coming; her disease is like that. But I know.
Please forgive me. I admire you for being able to even speak about your feelings. My own are such a mess I don't really know where to begin, let alone "prepare".
Blue, I didn't know your Wife made jewelry too. It was good to see you make a long post replying to everyone. I know you have days when you are not feeling your best. Looks like you are feeling better which pleases me very much. Hugs!