posted on Dec, 25 2017 @ 01:24 AM
I've been having nightmares lately. The kind where you have to force yourself to wake up, then you're relieved that they weren't real. A panic
attack within a dream I'll call it. I hope most of you have parents and/or kids for Christmas, maybe a significant other, but I have none of the
above. I recently inherited a fair bit of money. I was so excited to get it, then $15,000 later with late bills paid, a car with insurance, and big
plans, I'm still depressed. I still have enough for a new life but I have to jump on it in 2018. I thought certainly with money I could find an
awesome girl, but it's not that easy. You can't tell them about your wealth up front because you risk getting a bad one that will use you. I almost
had one of my beloved exes back, but I was a jerk after we hungout for a weekend and she's very unforgiving. I saw her on POF earlier. I suppose a
taste of something good put her back on her dating quest. However, I doubt she will find one as good for her as I am. That's a different story. I was
on there looking for other women too, while still having feelings for her.
So, my latest nightmare: I was living in a nice house, my Mom and Stepdad were still alive sleeping in a bed together (they stopped doing that shortly
after marriage). My sister who I don't trust was still there. I was talking to my parents when we were startled by a gunshot nearby and saw drama
unfolding outside of our house. Everyone freaked out, I remained calm and said this happens a lot, then went back to my room. I passed out, maybe had
a seizure, and got stuck underneath a desk. With the loud thud being heard, my sister opened the door, saw me like that, and did nothing. I told
myself to work my way out from under the desk alone, which I did, then to make it to my bed. I woke up on my bed asking myself if that had just
happened, then realized it had to be a dream because my parents are dead and my sister doesn't live here. I can't sleep much lately without having
these vivid dreams.
I look at death much in the same way. As you're dying, you have a '___' induced vivid dream via your pineal gland. It can either be a good one, or a
nightmare, depending on your life at the time. Then, instead of waking up, you're stuck in it for eternity, or you wake up into eternal nothingness
as the blood stops flowing to your brain. Thus the concept of Heaven, Hell, and why people try to live good lives and be nice to people before they
might pass. Religion supposedly helps. I'll take it like a man either way. It's just a dream. Near death experiences from Christians corroborate
this. They often say they're being attacked by demons, then go towards the light, and wake up in the hospital bed.