Everything is Different Now

a reply to: TNMockingbird
I know what you mean about talking to your Mom. I do that too. Most often for me it's in the garden. We had some of our best chats while working side by side in the gardens. She's been gone 38 years and some days I still miss her so much the tears come. But every day, in so many ways, she is still here with me. And so it is with my Beloved. Each morning upon rising and heading into the bathroom I see our smiling faces enjoying a submarine ride in Maui. He has on a bright red t-shirt with the inscription, "Frankly scallop, I don't give a clam."

a reply to: Macenroe82
Thank you. He deserves better than my feeble attempt to portray the kindest, gentlest man I've ever known. He loved to make people happy.

a reply to: Mike Stivic
Thanks. I'm an avid collector of hugs.

a reply to: diggindirt

Oh, I am just so sorry for your loss. *warm hugs*

Beautifully written tribute.

a reply to: diggindirt

I can tell you loved him dearly...and I know it hurts.
I doubt that void in your heart can ever be filled. But the memories of the happiness he brought you will certainly help

originally posted by: diggindirt
a reply to: Macenroe82
Thank you. He deserves better than my feeble attempt to portray the kindest, gentlest man I've ever known. He loved to make people happy.

NOT feeble and thank you for returning.
I worry about folks in these time.
Probably because I know and barely survived the tightrope I've walked.

a reply to: Macenroe82

Thank you. You've hit on the very thing that makes it bearable---the memories---and sharing them. Tonight I've been carrying on a tradition I've had since grad school---making chocolate chip cookies to hand out at Christmas. We always did a big cookie bake on the Solstice.

a reply to: TNMockingbird
At present I feel as though I'm wrapped in a warm cloak of love. With the holiday season I'll be having lots of visitors coming in to share the great memories we've made over the years. We'll cry a bit and we'll laugh a lot. I'm keeping busy and trying to stay focused on making this a happy season despite our sorrow.
We have a brand new (3 months old) baby in the family that I'll get to babysit tomorrow afternoon. What fun! It's been several years since I've had a baby to play with.

a reply to: diggindirt

Thinking of you today, DID.

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ETA: I just remembered you are a Kentucky Woman, like me. If you ever find yourself headed to Louisville...I'm here to lean on.

a reply to: MotherMayEye
Thanks for your kind invitation. I've sent you a PM.

a reply to: diggindirt



Got it.