posted on Dec, 11 2017 @ 01:55 PM
Who am i?
Well... I don't know. I can't get an answer myself. Am I what I judge I am? Am I what others judge I am? Am I what an almighty entity out of
this world judge I am? Am I strictly what my DNA informations tell I am? What should I choose to believe? Should I believe in myself as I'm the best
person to judge my reflection mechanism, my logic, my reasons behind a thought, a movement? Should I believe others, in their majority, in their
credibility. Should I believe that a God created me, and that he knows who I am? So what? I should just wait my entire life waiting for an answer that
I don't know if it'll be given to me, or even if the being exists? Should I believe my body from the physical world? My composition, my genes? Even
if I choose one, how can I know it's the right one? Are they all true? Do they all have a part of truth that when put together give a clearer view?
Maybe they are all false? How can I know that I have all the options from which to choose? I guess I don't have enough information to know it.
What am I?
Maybe I can find a glimpse of an answer from my body. Essentially, my body is composed from multiple organs, that all have a function to
maintain the body "alive", that themselves are constituted of tissues and cells. These cells are formed by molecules, which are an assemblage of
atoms. Does it have an end? Is my body the end of the chain? Or am I part of a greater system, with a specific function? Can I find my role by
understanding the greater system from which I'm part of? How do I manage to get that information? Is it a group of humans? The Earth maybe, which is
part of the solar system? If I focus on human group, then I can clearly have a function in the community, which can have a goal. All members are a
part of the group, which all have the same goal, the purpose of the gathering in the first place. So as part of the system, we all the same path, and
everyone contribute to achieve. So what's the goal of the part of my system, my body? Keeping me alive? Then how can I achieve this purpose? By
staying alive until the matter composing me can't keep up with my mind? Until the limits of the body? So then dying is the final achievement? So
then, instead of getting an answer, I get this:
Why am I?
Why am I living? Why am I conscious of myself? Of what's surrounding me? Why can I ask what am I doing here when I can't get an answer? Does
a question can exist without an answer? Is there a question to begin with? If the purpose of my body is to live the longer possible, then what should
be the goal of my mind? Learning? So my body would live longer so my mind can learn more? It seems to make sense since to live is to experience. But
is it accurate? Do I have enough information to get a decent answer? Maybe I'm in a false logic. Why learning, if all ends when my body dies? Do my
experiences will be used in an "afterlife", if so, is it the greater system of my mind? It seems my body and my mind are part of a different system
each other if true. But how to know without actually dying? I could just be an instrument from the universe to create order in the chaos, so I can
efficiently disperse energy from my living time, with the help of emotions and thoughts, by manipulating the matter around me. Should I get an answer
to live, or live to get an answer?
And then, the only conclusion that I can come across from that, is that I can believe. Is that who/what/why am I?