posted on Oct, 14 2017 @ 04:23 AM
I do not believe in God in a way that religions teach to believe in him, her or it, the only message in the religious texts that I think are important
is Love, Forgiveness, Compassion towards one another.
Last week I had a dream which I am still trying to bring the pieces of together to get a full picture, it is something that has been on my mind for
the last few days and yet I am still questioning the reasoning of - Why?
I don't believe that God left us because in the notion of absence there is presence and my dreams have indicated this, I know it is silly to say or
ponder upon such topic as we consider dreams to be merely dreams.
Withing the dream I kept wanting to ask for answers and none were given for a while, eventually after sometime an answer was given in a form of a
name. I will not utter this name here because well to be honest who knows who might be listening or watching...
The thing I was told though is that this person is the one I need to speak to and to trust no one else there except them, that this person knows and
can answer why things are as they are. Now comes the big shock God the voice that comes through emotions told me that this individual is at The
Vatican. I know! Big Shock? The voice saying to trust no one else at The Vatican but this person, which now brings the questions:
1. Why does the voice or God or It is saying to not trust anyone at The Vatican?
2. Has the Vatican been infiltrated?
3. Why specifically this individual?
Now one would assume notions of a dream being a dream and that it's all wild imagination, I however decided to see if this person is even real and to
my surprise they are real and they work at The Vatican. I have not heard, seen or even remember mentions of this individual anywhere so it is
impossible for my subconscious to be bringing this up from a memory.
I now wonder that if this Voice is indeed saying the truth, than a thought struck me that the place we all consider to be Holy and a representation of
God is no longer the place of God. So would it be wrong of me to assume that - God has lost faith and turned his eye away from The Roman Catholic
I stand before a door upon which I need to decide if I am to take the first step through, to behold and listen to this voice and let it guide me to
where it is I am meant to go. Like a gentle wind of whisper radiating joy, love, peace and reassurance, I must decide to what it is I am meant to do.
And yet I do fear to take that first step not to mention contacting this specific individual - Father ******* within the Vatican.
I am not a man of faith as many preach themselves to be, I am not a man of the cloth, I've been to Church 2 times in my life, when I was a 1 year old
child and was baptized and the 2nd time was a friend who dragged me there but it didn't feel right.
For even now I am sitting here pondering the thoughts and notions, if God or whatever indeed wished for me to do things I still doubt. I guess I am a
defiant son in the eyes of this force that no matter how much proof he is provided still doubts.