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posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:04 PM
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* I fully expect to be laughed at, amongst other things. But, I'm open to any and all your comments, thoughts, etc. *

Short version ...

A woman came into my life a few months ago that I absolutely fell head over heels in love with. A very, VERY spiritual woman. A woman who messaged me over Facebook to say " We must see each other. " And to my surprise, I strongly felt the need to see her as well. From our first meeting to our current meetings/relationship has been a wild, wild ride lol. We are almost PERFECT for each other. She is 21 years my senior, but I stopped caring a long while back.

Here's where it get's interesting though ...

She told me that she had seen Jesus in a past life. She, through past regression therapy, felt that she was looking through the eyes of Mary Magdalene at him. And she described his energy, how he looked, how be carried himself and how it made her feel to be around him. And ... well ... she believes that I am Jesus Christ. Yeah ... well ... it certainly caught ME by surprise. And I'm not sure if I believe it ( was told this a couple of months ago ), but ... these last couple of months :

- I have had intense anxiety/panic attacks. Like today, for instance, where I literally feel a strong dissociation with the body and mind... energy " bursts " through my head, heart, and lower stomach. I feel tingly all over my body, I feel strong vibrations, and I feel like it's 200 degrees on the inside. And even more scary, I often feel like I'm coming out of my body. A very, very unsettling feeling. It's like your nowhere but everywhere all at once. Feels like this power/entity just comes through me. VERY INTENSE


- Started meditating a couple of months ago fairly regularly. Within minutes I'm able to go somewhere " quiet ". And when I do ... well ... I see this bright yellow light emerge and feel what seems like a body " orgasm ". I also feel very, very light and vibratory ( if that's a word ).

- I laid in bed one night and in anger denied that I was Jesus and that it was a silly idea. And when I did that, I saw a vision of me on the cross. I denied it again the next day and had a vision of me with my arms downward and outstretched, palms open.

Also had a pic taken of me one day out while hiking ( should show in this thread ). And I ASSURE YOU ... this was NOT planned, not orchestrated. Both my friend and I were in shock. My girlfriend lol ... not so much. She wasn't even phased by it.

- Went and seen a close, psychic channeler friend of mine. She is LEGIT. Has predicted so many things ( with detail ) that have come true ! So I asked her ... " Am I Jesus ". She said that the other side said it was hard to put into words/language that a human could understand ... but ... I could possibly be him ... but am definitely his archetype. Well ... okay ...

And many, MANY others things have happened and are happening to me daily. I feel like I'm going nuts. And I have no history of mental illness. For God's sake, I'm just a truck driver. Certainly nothing special special. But its becoming more and more difficult to function at work ( have had to leave early twice just this week ). It's ... again ... very scary, unsettling.

I would also like to conclude something ... my girlfriend believes I'm morphing and coming into ... well ... him. Strangely enough, I turned 33 years old in April ... and ... I see the number " 33 " ( amongst many others 11:11, 333, 555, 777, etc. ) And me and her met a couple months after that.

It seems my life is moving in a direction that is so unfamiliar to me. And it is tearing me down each and every day, and I am not sure why.


Any idea what's happening to me, anyone ? I appreciate any and all that you all have to say. I know I'll be told ( most likely ) to see a doctor and/or psychologist, I know I'll be laughed at, mocked even. But this is all very real ... at least to me, right ? :/

And to think 3-4 months ago I was just some guy lifting weights everyday, going to work, doing my fatherly duties, without any idea of what was going to transpire further down the road ...



- James


P.S - Like most, if not all of you, I've always felt ( since the time I was 7 or so ) that I was meant to contribute HUGELY to our world. In fact, at 8-9 years old, I was giving sermons ( my father would help write them out ) to children and adults in church, was leading discussions on religion, was discussing God and the Devil with preachers, priests, etc.

I always wanted to help lead people into the light. Always. Yet it feels so dark to me right now ...




posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:05 PM
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You are not Jesus.


Second line.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:06 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

You think you’re Jesus because of dreams?

I’ve dreamt I can fly. Guess what? I can’t.
edit on 6102017 by TerryDon79 because: (no reason given)



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:10 PM
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originally posted by: Jefferton
You are not Jesus.


Second line.



Then, in your opinion, what am I ? Or better yet, what do you think it is I'm going through ?

Thank you, sir. And I do appreciate and value your comments.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:12 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

I had a dream I was Zeus.

Seems we have a real conundrum here ........



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:12 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight
I believe there is but ONE being in all of creation, so yeah, I believe you are Jesus. Everyone is...You'll see....



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:13 PM
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originally posted by: TerryDon79
a reply to: 34thRight

You think you’re Jesus because of dreams?

I’ve dreamt I can fly. Guess what? I can’t.



Not dreams, sir. Visions. And I don't necessarily believe I'm Jesus, no. I'm just looking, rather desperately, at people that perhaps share my experience and/or have the knowledge/experience to explain to me what I'm going through.

Thank you, sir.

And you can fly


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posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:14 PM
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I am no specialist especially in this area but I do not believe your woman friend has been good for you. Sounds like she has been too influential and has somehow been able to control your psyche. Please remove her from your life. Consult only your closest and most supportive friends for advice about what you are experiencing-I am sure they will want you to get tested. You sound like your brain may be hallucinating, having seizures, etc. It is important to rule that out first. Please take care of yourself. I can assure you, though, as well as your friends and family, you are not Jesus nor morphing into him. Surround yourself with normal, loving and caring people; exclude the elderly woman asap. Best wishes. I care. Sorry you are going through this. It sounds really terrifying. Trust your gut.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:14 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

You are not Jesus, because I already know that guy. I'm just saying, there are many people that experience what you describe. You would be surprised. For your anxiety, I recommend an over-the-counter antacid. It has worked wonders for me. As for your girlfriend... I hope the sex is worth it. I wish you the best. We all know what happened to Jesus...



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:15 PM
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You cannot be Jesus because I am Jesus.

Unless you can prove I am not Jesus then you cannot be Jesus.

Sorry OP.

Now who to smite next....



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:15 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

Ok, “visions”. Same thing.

What you’re going through is called delusion. Thinking you’re something you’re not because you’ve had a dream.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:19 PM
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to be totally honest, i think that your affection for your girlfriend has made you vulnerable to suggestion, and caused you to spend so much time dwelling on her pet concept that it's chivvied away at your sense of what's likely or not. i think either you end up breaking up with her and getting your head back on straight, or you stay with her and end up leading a cult.

either way, be sure to keep us updated



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:23 PM
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I think the girlfriend is encouraging all this . The more she says it's true, the more believable it becomes. You have so much going on that's influencing the belief , is not possible to have a clear head and know.

Were you channeling / meditating before you met her?



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:27 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

Quick test, go to the nearest body of water and try to walk across it.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:27 PM
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edit on 6-10-2017 by TobyFlenderson because: double post



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:28 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

Stop dreaming!



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:31 PM
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Apples and oranges my friend. Your Jesus persona and the psychic channeler thing are in direct opposition to each other. Believing in both will take you nowhere. Perhaps you were better off just being a Father and working.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:36 PM
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a reply to: 34thRight

I'm not sure I would want to continue a relationship with someone who thought I was a deity. Because I know I'm not, and you should too. Sorry.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:36 PM
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Holman Christian Standard Bible
False messiahs and false prophets will arise and perform great signs and wonders to lead astray, if possible, even the elect.

I think that you may be displaying just another sign of the coming End Times.

You may indeed be one of those prophesied, just not in the manner that you may think.

I guess we will all have our role to play when the time comes.



posted on Oct, 6 2017 @ 12:37 PM
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I admire your courage posting this knowing it would probably be met with well ....

My only suggestion, due to you sounding somewhat logical during an illogical experience, is to ask someone close to you; friend, relative, colleague, whilst you're alone with them if they have perceived any noticeable change within you of late. Ask them to be honest and then be open to what ever they say. It does seem like you can look at it from a wider perspective.

It's probably not the age that is an issue, more the level of being infatuated to such an extent that it could possibly distort your perception and analysis of things around you.



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