posted on Sep, 28 2017 @ 01:43 AM
@CramItClown Im glad you signed up! I’m so glad your dad won his battle, he sounds like an incredible guy, and a good fighter. I hate the idea of
putting my burdens on others. I already feel like a burden to my girl, and the hospital; they should be focused on someone who isnt...in this
@Onlyyouknow Thank you for your kind words. That would be hard for me to do. I died twice during my surgery and in ICU, and I felt, and witnessed,
nothing, pure, nothingness.
@muzzleflash yes, its true I dont have a pulse. My Aortic valve is stitched open, so therefore no pulse is created. So I have no blood pressure, I
have a MAP (Mean Arterial Pressure)
@vonclod Thank you, but I have felt like a burden since this happened, on her, my folks, the health department and resources, the psychiatrist I now
see... I just see myself as a strain on everyone.
But I must sleep, its 1am and my nurse is getting pissy because I'm not sleeping...as usual