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originally posted by: Incandescent
I went through a life changing series of events earlier this year and have been in two minds about whether or not to share my experiences publicly on the internet. I will try be as concise as I can be without being too specific as not to reveal my identity.
Firstly, I have no doubts that I did suffer psychosis to some degree, but I do strongly believe there was a more spiritual angle to this than meets the eye. You read and decide for yourself.
A few months back I was voluntarily hospitalised after showing signs of extreme paranoia and hyper-vigilance. I have dealt with depression and anxiety but nothing like this. I was working at a really unprofessional and badly-run business where I would spend a great chunk of my time discussing politics and world events with my supervisors.
They were hard-line anarchists who seemed to also have an interest in conspiracy topics like me and I got along with them up until my last day there. On my last day there, one of them used some kind of flashing device on me when one of our discussions became heated.
After being exposed to this flashing device, I felt really nauseous. My thought patterns became incoherent and I generally felt awful. It was mentally the worst I had ever felt in my 30+ years alive. I still don’t know what that device was or how it affected me, but it led to my hospitalisation and resulted psychosis.
The day I was admitted to hospital I was very emotional and continually looking around and was quick to respond to sound and visual stimuli. On the first evening is when things got really strange. I would have a thought and my head would begin to throb. Eventually I started to realise that asking questions in my own mind would result in a type of answer from some unknown source.
If I didn’t word a question clearly, my head would throb. I began wording questions about my life and the world around me in clear concise sentences and took up the habit of asking “What do I think is the reason I have been targeted?” instead of “why am I being targeted?” for example. Every time I incorrectly worded a question my head would throb, sometimes very badly if I annoyed whoever I was communicating with.
The next day I would get strange hints/information about other people in the hospital and informed whether their intentions were motivated by a thirst for power or not. I was being conditioned myself to seek power and use it for my own ends as a patient there. It’s really difficult to explain this, but it was like synchronicity and subtle commands combined.
Things got really weird later that first day as a patient. I ended up taking part in a series of instructions given to me by the “contact” in my mind. These weren’t evil things, but more like ways I could gain advantage over other people. On that day, I was also subjected to a body scan which I did not consent to. Nobody gave it, it was like a mystical force in my room that spanned my WHOLE body (genitals included). At one point, the scan stopped on my heart and I was at the mercy of whoever was dong the scan as it began beating really quickly. I remember thinking LOVE and PEACE, LOVE AND PEACE over and over in my head in case I died.
Later that evening I left the hospital and had the weirdest experiences to date (I should not have been allowed to leave, but since I was voluntary I could go, although clearly I was not in a good frame of mind). I was being instructed to do weird/immoral things and my head would move in the direction of special cues of whoever was communicating with me. There would be a clicking sound (like a phone’s camera) at key times that would make note of what I had thought or done.
Luckily I did not do anything bad that I can recall and there was no warrant out for my arrest. Strangely, a voice in my head kept informing me to go to the hospital I had left, to return there. Finally I did and I was hospitalised as an involuntary patient.
My experiences with staff and doctors there were even more fascinating as I was confined to the special care area of the hospital. There is loads more to tell but I don’t want to bore anyone. If you’d like to know more I am happy to answer your questions.
Now better and released from hospital, I am firmly of the opinion that some (most likely nefarious) person/entity was communicating with me psychically and guiding me to do things at one stage. It was like they had cheat mode and could predict and maneuver me to do things or for things to go against my interests without being seen.
Can anyone else relate to this type of experience?
TextSomewhere in time while interrogation the aliens over the years, they found out that colors can manipulate the mind.They also found out that during the course of time that these aliens had implanted these things in hundred of thousands of people across the world. They found out that this hand held device has 3 functions and with an implant used with the device it could control a human being. The greater the color the more the story will be believed.By the way that’s why the men in black use black sun glasses and presidents use special contact lenses..but anyway.
I'm going to be really honest with you dude..like really honest/That's device was found back in the 60s and to my knowledge was never to be used again from some treaty between Bush sr and some aliens back in the 90s.
When I obtained files along time ago on this situation it had been passed on as old news.There were 3 functions on this device but in 2003 they only knew what 2 of the 3 functions.