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i hate my self, but i want to live

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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 11:41 AM
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originally posted by: mysterioustranger
a reply to: milaxnuts

You might want to read he rules about threading and where, what, how and what you can and can't. You've already blown past a couple here.

Don't just join up and dive in without any observation of how-to's.... or the Ts and C's you agreed to here!!!!


Best


agreed? no. forced to agree? maybe.

again,
who is right, feels no need to hide.

also,
who is old, has no time to 'work his way up' .... twice.

of course, this is NOT my domain.
but 'zero tolerance' is no rule, its stupidity set in stone.

so what?
do i make your kiddies panic?
where is the adult section?

or let me guess,
this is just another honeypot for the US army?
of course,
the whole internet is : D

then i must be 'some crazy german'
with crazy ideas and excess hate.

all i hear is 'wrong address' ..
so whats the right address then?

i want do discuss content, not form.
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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 11:47 AM
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a reply to: milaxnuts

You want to discuss stuff but this is the INTRODUCTION forum. Wrong way, wrong place, wrong time. Please.....
Check things out 1st OK?

Still, welcome....
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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 11:56 AM
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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 11:57 AM
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originally posted by: mysterioustranger
a reply to: milaxnuts

You want to discuss stuff but this is the INTRODUCTION forum. Wrong way, wrong place, wrong time. Please.....
Check things out 1st OK?

Still, welcome....


i see no difference.
i am my theory.

classic world view = weak alone, strong in group.
so i always speak for 'my group' .. even when i am alone.

classics = fire + earth = bipolar = dopamine + serotonine in balance.
romantics = air + water = bisexual = testosterone + estrogen in balance.

or,
my personal history is a poor descriptor for 'my self'.
this more feels like a 'doctor interview',
trying to find the 'cause of my sickness' in my personal history.
'have you been raped as kid?' -- uuh no. -- notes: denies being raped, investigate further, this is suspicious.

*rollz



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 12:10 PM
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a reply to: milaxnuts

Hi milaxnuts, welcome to ATS.

Have you been lurking for a while? Which areas or topics are you interested in?



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 12:25 PM
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originally posted by: dffrntkndfnml
a reply to: milaxnuts

Hi milaxnuts, welcome to ATS.

Have you been lurking for a while? Which areas or topics are you interested in?


zero lurking.

topics?
better education.
natural order. completeness. perfection.
made order. trauma based mind control.
social psychology. group dynamics.
personality psychology. natural roles. inborn talent and expectations.
emergence of culture.
low tech. minimal culture. simple but effective.

education as the root of all evil.
small family as ground for sickness.

'the rule of eight' as solution candidate.

F3 -- M1 * F2 -- M4
|| . . . . . . . . . . . . ||
M3 -- F1 * M2 -- F4

3 air
1 fire
2 earth
4 water.

F female
M male.

reasons? feeling.
natural order is ALL about feeling.
nature operates nude and mute.

nude .. perfect .. complete .. flawless.

i seek simple rules like:
signs of weakness are complexity and secrets.

i seek perfection, not only majority.

seeking only majority is shortsight,
satanism, made order, morbid gain, trauma defense.



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 12:43 PM
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a reply to: milaxnuts

Well, it looks like you have a wide range of interests. I'm more into the metaphysical perspective on all this. Idk you may want to invest some time into browsing the various sub-forums, to get a better idea of where to begin.

There's many bright members in our community, and this can be a great place to get feedback on your ideas. God willing, the clarity that comes from this, spills over into the other areas of your life.

Your posts seem to be rather raw in their approach, consider refining what you have to say so it's easier to follow. You'll get out what you put into it, and hopefully it becomes easier with practice. Good luck



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 12:44 PM
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stand in a group of people talking,
group changes shape to no longer include you ....

knowyourmeme.com...

< social incompatible wanker. mute pointer.



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 12:49 PM
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a reply to: milaxnuts

Depends what your smoking, lol.

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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 01:05 PM
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originally posted by: dffrntkndfnml
a reply to: milaxnuts

Depends what your smoking, lol.


none. 'straight edge' for a year now.
i have always prefered my 'sober state'.

also,
smoking tryptamines is a nightmare in my toxic place.
electric noise everywhere, zero friends. [ oh wonder : D ]
had too many bad trips on psydels,
never learned to have fun with telepathy.

but i still act as 'audio transmitter' ..
i guess, im synced via AC power grid to my neighbors.
wild guess on secret military tech.

i guess 'silent suggestion'
is one talent of the 'psychotic' elements, fire and water.
phlegmatics not cholerics.
long palms. long nail beds.

why fire can remain mute, and still send audio.
why water can remain hidden, and still send video?

water = born mentalist. fear sensor. paranoid empath.
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originally posted by: dffrntkndfnml
a reply to: milaxnuts

Well, it looks like you have a wide range of interests. I'm more into the metaphysical perspective on all this.


well!

my primate is the physical realm.

or, my rule, my majority.
hence, search for 'minimal culture'.
primitive. low tech.
self organization. natural order.
extensive approach. lazy.


originally posted by: dffrntkndfnml
God willing, the clarity that comes from this, spills over into the other areas of your life.

Your posts seem to be rather raw in their approach, consider refining what you have to say so it's easier to follow. You'll get out what you put into it, and hopefully it becomes easier with practice. Good luck

'hate speech of a dying one'.
realistically speaking, i will not survive the next months. world war 3 incoming.

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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 01:42 PM
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i'm really getting that time cube kind of feeling



posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 01:44 PM
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originally posted by: milaxnuts

none. 'straight edge' for a year now.
i have always prefered my 'sober state'.

also,
smoking tryptamines is a nightmare in my toxic place.
electric noise everywhere, zero friends. [ oh wonder : D ]
had too many bad trips on psydels,
never learned to have fun with telepathy.

but i still act as 'audio transmitter' ..
i guess, im synced via AC power grid to my neighbors.
wild guess on secret military tech.

i guess 'silent suggestion'
is one talent of the 'psychotic' elements, fire and water.
phlegmatics not cholerics.
long palms. long nail beds.

why fire can remain mute, and still send audio.
why water can remain hidden, and still send video?

water = born mentalist. fear sensor. paranoid empath.

Congrats on the straight edge lifestyle.Idk, ethnogens can cause static for sensitive individuals, especially without consideration to setting. They are often mentioned causally, though Imo they are meant to be a gift to gain insight into the finer parts of life.

Lately I've been wondering about the effects of increased ef fields on society. I wonder if they are powering up aspects of ourselves artificially.I guess we'll see how it plays out.

On the telepathy tip, I feel it develops naturally as ones abilities unfold. Imo, those who have advocated practicing periodic lengths of silence in daily life were encouraging seekers to have a deeper understanding of how this could work. It makes for an interesting exercise when out and about, people watching.



my primate is the physical realm.

or, my rule, my majority.
hence, search for 'minimal culture'.
primitive. low tech.
self organization. natural order.
extensive approach. lazy.

Trying to get the "gist"? The "gist" of everything?


"A coward dies a thousand deaths, a soldier dies but once."-Tupac

I got to run. See you on the boards here. Have a good day.

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posted on Sep, 4 2017 @ 02:53 PM
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originally posted by: fiverx313
i'm really getting that time cube kind of feeling


yes, this is a 'theory of every thing'.

i openly claim wholeness, perfection.
but in a casual / extensive / lazy way, not forced.
i can offer a 'social function' for every 'body type'.
no need for 'complex education'.

the downside is 'dependency'.
if you 'only' develop your own talent,
then you depend on the talent of others,
to 'fill your weak spots'.
but 'made order' has a very similar approach,
only way more complex and confusing.

lazy education?
simply arrange a 'group of eight types' and let them play.
.. and also 'let them follow'
= copy the 'old generation' = group of eight, at mature age.

natural order also includes 'hunting and killing wild animals'.
maybe start with 'guinea pigs'? : D

air = trickster + robber.
fire = father + murder.

air will scout for prey, trick it into a trap, and hold it for fire, so ..
fire will decide over 'life and death' = natural selection.
if the 'prey candidate' is 'too good' = flawless, then it should survive.

[ compare, protocols of zion: kill the best of the goyem.
or witch hunts: kill all 'born leaders' who refuse to join our conspiracy.
= kill all rivals to 'established leaders', so more slaves for less leaders. ]

one 'start point' is .... most of us are unchallenged, bored.
to me, hunting for wild animals, is the 'natural cure' to extraversion.
extraversion = sanguinic mood = elements air + fire.
air = hyper active = eric cartman.
when bored, will troll the # out of others, to provoke fire = devil in public.

man hunt .. homo homini lupus ..
when humans have no 'wild animals' to hunt,
they will start hunting other humans,
natural cannibalism = hunt for the most prevalent species.
but what is missing, is murder and 'eating the prey'.
instead, we hunt 'criminals' and torture them for the rest of their life.
frustrating for all sides.
'but there is no better way' .. err, yes there is.
they just excluded 'the solution' right from the start = broken by design, trauma culture.

[ also 'hunting as privilege for the rich' feeds this problem.
generally,
fail in 'self limiting' = 'deadly population control' ]


originally posted by: dffrntkndfnml
Lately I've been wondering about the effects of increased ef fields on society. I wonder if they are powering up aspects of ourselves artificially.I guess we'll see how it plays out.

electric noise = infrared light pollution.
effect is similar to 'sleep deprivation'
>> immune weakness, tension, low energy, irritable, aggressive, impatient.
also, you prefer to 'stare into the ground', cos then the 'tinnitus tone' has lowest pitch.
instead, looking horizontally into others faces, is more painful.
its called 'gaze-evoked tinnitus',
and is more bio-feedback than sickness.
to me, its a healthy 'warning sign' of a toxic surrounding.
but again, secret military tech.
no one will help you. go buy your self a bunker .... survival of the richest.

electric noise + metal in body.
metal amplifies radiation,
radiation binds metal in body, cos body can not 'get hold' of the metal particles.
evil #.
read:
samuel milham -- dirty electricity.
>> most healthy people are the 'old amish' with zero electricity.
no 'diseases of civilization', no 'chronic diseases'.
oh wonder!
this happens when you exclude murder = element fire.
>> your population explodes, many other species go extinct,
and in the end, you always need 'mass murder' aka 'world war',
to 'fix a broken system'.
or in nice words 'ordo ab chaos'. yea right. culture fail. broken by design.

my approach is 'timeless'.
no need for 'revolution' or 'mass murder'.
i create 'the perfect order' from day one,
and include all thats necessary, to hold that order.
of course, this also includes hunting + defense.
but instead of 'mass murder every 50 years'
i propose 'go hunting every day'.
in the 'current situation' this also means:
hunting for humans, both to recruit and sacrifice.
reminds of 'drug cartels' and 'santa muerte'.



On the telepathy tip, I feel it develops naturally as ones abilities unfold. Imo, those who have advocated practicing periodic lengths of silence in daily life were encouraging seekers to have a deeper understanding of how this could work. It makes for an interesting exercise when out and about, people watching.

yes! body language. silent audio.




my primate is the physical realm.

or, my rule, my majority.
hence, search for 'minimal culture'.
primitive. low tech.
self organization. natural order.
extensive approach. lazy.

Trying to get the "gist"? The "gist" of everything?

im afraid, i found it.
result of the 'balancing act' between genius and madness.
looks 'too easy' at first, but allows millions of translations.
to me, it can describe ANY 'human behavior',
and reduce ALL complexity to one simple model.

the hardest part is the 'who is who?'
= anabaptism,
find the 'real name' = element for every one.




"A coward dies a thousand deaths, a soldier dies but once."-Tupac

I got to run. See you on the boards here. Have a good day.

not sure how the quote fits.
i would sort tupac into the 'element water' category.
i.pinimg.com...
long pointed fingers.
long pointed nose.
loose mouth.
pessimist?

wow! tldr. too long DONT read .... : P



posted on Sep, 5 2017 @ 02:44 AM
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this is ....

how to break the system,
and build a better system.

escape from 'made order'
restore 'natural order'.

all you need is ....
land,
people,
plants,
animals.

----

this also is ....

take me to your leader.

if you have no leader,
then i am your leader now,
and i will show you,
how you can find your own leader.

.... or how to lead others,
if you are a 'born leader' your self.

im dead already, so lets play.



posted on Sep, 8 2017 @ 04:34 PM
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Too abstract




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