I'm currently partway through a documentary - which shall (for now) remain nameless, so as to preserve the environment as being one that is free from
the risk of ad hominem - which is really nailing to the door a number of indisputable facts which should serve as a 'wake up' call to Humanity..
There are a range of issues being discussed, and much of it centres around a particular principle which is alluded to, but one which is not hammered
home in its deepest layers of abstraction. The principle being considered centres around ENERGY, and the control of the same - rightly naming it as
the singular, fundamental pretext of all hierarchies of need, which - as the result of manipulation by a rolling company of perhaps 20,000 'fully
read-in' people worldwide - is the singular driving force of the cosmos - which is present in its usurped control of not only our presently toxic
economic structures, but in fact - in a specific, 'archetypal form', one which is far removed from that toxic misappropriation of keynesian
economics - is the very driving force, impetus, momentum & generator of all throughput, of cascading orders of complexity, through various orders of
magnitude, being extant in everything from the sub-atomic packets of energy of quantum physics, through the harmonics of the electromagnetic spectrum,
the vibrational qualities of sound waves passing through matter agglomerates, up to solar systems, galaxies, galaxy clusters & so on, to perhaps the
very fabric of the cosmos, the undergirding & binding materia prima - that substance upon which the entirety of all being is seated, or perhaps from
which all is suspended, or about which all turns. The last metaphor is almost certainly the most appropriate.
Anyway, this documentary adopts a very positive outlook, which (for me personally) has been hard to see sometimes through the smog of distraction &
the seeds f hatred which are engendered & fostered in all of us, via our magickal masters, those to whom we are in a condition of enforced fealty -
despite no sense of ties binding us being readily apparent, at first (or second, third, fourth or fifth) appraisal.
I am guilty of falling into a 'ground state' of permanent anger & ideologically-driven hatred of a particular belief system. I do still hate that
belief system, because I understand how it works, and it is hard to see how anyone could possibly believe it is of any spiritual value in light of the
facts. However, I am now much more aware of quite how gullible I was to be swayed into looking intently at that system, hating it, condemning it,
refusing to allow misconception to stand concerning it. I became so enraged by that system that I totally missed the manipulation which was occurring
in a number of spheres, by which, these master magicians have misdirected us, pointing at distorted dogma & affirming by believing their own lies, so
that we might be so turned around & about that in a double, triple, quadruple, quintuple manner, eyes fliking around a hall of mirrors, drawing on a
perversion of true expansion into infinity - telling us what is good, and bad, and wrapping it in so many slightly misshapen packages that clear sight
of what is IN FACT good, true, noble, honourable, decent, pleasant, virtuous, beautiful, is all but eliminated from our vision our capacity to
I almost became consumed by that hatred. After a while, that poison began to seep into more & more of my eye, obscuring & twisting reality around me
like the coils of a snake, darkening the sight which is supposed to be clear, true & focused only on Truth. I found myself wrapped ever tighter -
until I couldn't actually see beyond the incensed hatred, anger, indignation, frustration, bitterness, fear, repulsion, self-loathing & anger. The
hatred outward became hatred inward - and so insipid was it, that I clouded my own ability to perceive the truth, becoming prideful & aloof, a
misanthrope consumed by fear & insecurity. My energy thus warped, the constant refreshment we are supposed to draw from the Universal, became instead
a constant depletion, a negative self-reinforcement, a full inversion of the energy harmony which is intended for us. I caught glimpses of this
self-loathing being directed outwards, but convinced myself it was entirely the result of some alien force seeking to dominate my will. I caught
glimpses of this darkness when I looked in the mirror, but I convinced myself it was a deception, that I was being assaulted by an otherworldy force.
And surely that was partially the case - but it only retained a foothold because I had forgotten how to live in that state of permanent refreshment &
grace of presence which comes with Truth.
I have come to see that the only force truly dominating my vision, was a failure to perceive that I was being manipulated - a few nudges here & there,
a few failures to distinguish ego from self, and with that blind spot, a doorway, an ever tightening coil of descent into a prison partly of my own
Thankfully, I am beginning to learn how to separate my true self from the falsehood of 'egoic self-defence at all costs', which is an effectively
sinful drive to maintain the selfish preservation of a conditioned sense of entitlement, becoming a self-defeating battle to protect my 'right' to a
manner of ego-driven humanity - which is in fact so self-serving that even 'good' actions, thoughts, patterns of behaviour, and relationships,
become castles of sand, constantly being torn down & desperately rebuilt, each time Reality washed ashore to remind me of what was ACTUALLY true.
I see these distractions, misdirections & fallacies of thinking in myself, and I can't abide them. But is it still only pride that feels indignant &
outraged by these traits? Am I to live as myself, or to dissolve ego in a more permanent sense? Do I have a RIGHT to my own integral sense of worth,
or am I so flawed & failed that my only true calling is to abandon my Self & seek out wider spheres of being which in some way engage more fully &
capably, unselfishly, with the rest of Mankind?
Are we supposed to consider ourselves worthy, or are we utter dross?
"Have I not told you, that you are gods?"
More thoughts later. I hope that if this thread develops, it develops into a discussion of "In what way are they lying to me today? "What are we
being directed to observe, not only in terms of newsworthy material, but also in terms of fundamentally who we are?"
And let's not have any NAN regarding 'all religion is false', or 'religion is stupid', or worse, 'my religion is perfect, yours is false'.
Because that may well be the case - but just saying it, won't actually help.
Apparencies are the realm of Mind. Certitude is for the Heart. An ego-driven man, Anonymous..