posted on Jul, 22 2017 @ 04:50 PM
The reason I've barely been around is due to a hectic work schedule and new relationship. I'm happy, seem to actually have things together for
once, and sadly as a result seem to rarely have time to dedicate to ATS. Which is too bad, I do miss it.
Not only do I seem to have things together, I even have and am maintaining this thing called a budget and working towards my future. The fugue that
was my intense depression seems to have become something that becomes simply tolerable at it's worst rather than completely overwhelming. For once
I'm in a relationship that uplifts me when I'm in need, as well as working a job that feels meaningful.
As time goes on I even find myself becoming a better person, able to dedicate more energy towards helping others. No longer do I simply eat fast food
everyday, in fact I'm even cooking now as does my girlfriend.
As for the budget thing, I'm not only succeeding there, but have actually managed to get ahead. I'm no longer living simply week to week. I'm not
FAR ahead yet, but at least I'm over one month pay ahead. So I actually have emergency funds. Is a lot of stress gone.
Sadly a good portion of that money came from the passing of my grandmother who I loved greatly. I made a trip to Florida to visit, but wasn't really
on time. She was barely cohesive if you can call it that... was a long painful trip to basically just watch her rapidly degrade and die... But at
least my girlfriend got to see the ocean for the first time.
Is amazing though how sometimes just getting a little ahead can open so many doors. Is hard to start saving and working to remove debt when you are
living week to week. By simply having a separate account I keep one month ahead and maintaining it with enough money each week to cover my bills,
plus a bit extra by rounding up, so I never have to worry about them has removed tremendous stress, and in some ways made it feel like I have more
rather than less money than I did before when I paid them as they came.
So yeah... growing up I guess. Job that makes me feel worth something, somehow in love and a relationship again, and being responsible for a change
and somehow feeling less stressed for having become so.
Hopefully I'll find more time for ATS though, I do miss it, and it can be fun. Plus I've had help from many here in getting through hard times.