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That was only this last time I went to that dark place, believe me it has lasted much longer. IT never really goes away but I have no choice but to deal and move on. I don't have insurance so I can't get meds and the one thing that works is illegal where I live so I have had to try other means to cope. It's not easy at all and I feel like a failure sometimes but something kicks me in gear and I just do it. I have a nice support system so that helps. I didn't always have that but my best friend has the same mental issues I do so we can related and help each other. I've never had that before. My bf is also very supportive and the first man who didn't use my bi polar against me. His brother has it so he gets it and knows how to handle my moods but with him he grounds me in a way I've never had so it's not that bad with him.
originally posted by: leloomultipass
a reply to: mblahnikluver
im glad it only lasted for 2 months (thats like, the blink of an eye in my world) and u had something and someone that needed u.
I found my best friend years ago in a group for bi polar on facebook! We have never met, she lives on the other side of the country but it's like we have known each other forever. We talk daily and use Facetime. She knows more about me than anyone in my life! If it wasn't for her the last 4 years I don't know where I would be. I use to just close myself off and hide. I hide it well, very well! Not sure if you are on Facebook but may join some groups and meet others you can talk to? I am part of a couple that are really good and it's nice to have people who can related to what you're feeling.
i dont have anything and anybody but i live on every day anyway, cause death seems like the worst solution.
even if im depressed and can barely get enough energy to take 1 shower per week at least i have memes and gaming to keep me company and in death i wouldnt even have that
so thats something
Oh faking energy.....been there. I work but for me it helps me. It is hard at times but work is an escape. My last job was at Bank of America and well it was probably the worst environment ever but I liked my customers and that's why I went to work every day, plus food and a roof over my head! My friend is on disability for her bi polar and BPD, she can't work.
but after 15 years u learn to fake energy in that; there are some things you have to do in order to have food on the table. i dont work, im on welfare, and i have to do 1 thing every month and i fake energy to be able to do that one thing but even that is a struggle
and after 10 different types of medication and years of drug abuse and cutting i finally decided to just live for 1 day at a time and dont look further than one day.
the only thing i havent tried yet is ECT and that is next whenever i get enough courage/will to do that.
Everyone's battle is different. What works for you clearly didn't work for him. Nobody knows the demons he dealt with daily. Nobody but him, not even his family could possibly know what he went through emotionally on a daily basis.
I dont' take meds. I have such adverse reactions to them I hate it. Prozac was great but it made me non emotional and as an empath it was hard.
I know for me I have battled depression and suicidal thoughts a lot especially this year because of all the stress
I use to just close myself off and hide. I hide it well, very well!
No matter how depressed you are there's no reason to suicide.
And don't begin to tell me I don't know the abyss that is depression and abuse.
Also the fact that you haven't tested any meds tells me you haven't experienced the bottom yet.
Chester wouldn't do that to his kids and family.
And get back to me when you won't get out of bed for 3 days straight and have to forcibly be taken to the hospital to get fluids and medication, then i can sympathise with you
Then I'll doubt you'd say "nope haven't tried meds, never will" like you're better than the rest of us
until then you're just a hipster to me who thinks he has felt depression.
originally posted by: BigBangWasAnEcho
Wtf does mental health gotta do with it...
Depression isn't a thing, its a side effect.
Why won't anyone address the CAUSE? Shed light on the REASON? No one is depressed just because.
Now investigators believe that the deaths of Cornell and Bennington – who died on Cornell’s birthday – may be linked.
Now investigators believe that the deaths of Cornell and Bennington – who died on Cornell’s birthday – may be linked. The parallels between the two deaths are astonishing. The close friends, who were working on exposing notorious entertainment industry pedophiles, died in the same way – with Bennington’s death taking place on what would have been Cornell’s 53rd birthday.