Good morning all. I hope you slept good, and I hope some of you at least tried the exercise. I hope no one is mad at me for freaking out all over the
internet posting this exercise, in essence damaging any credibility I or this thread may have had. I know that is precisely the opposite of what I
posted about the other day, and the reason I had slowed down on posting in here.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about all of this, none of it was spur of the moment. I was honest when I told you all that I was scared of losing
something that appeared like control. When I thought I had some kind of control, I could tell myself that I was special, or part of something special,
or destined to do something special. I don't think there is anything inherently wrong with that, I think that it is the human condition and very
natural for any of us to feel. I am definitely not embarrassed or ashamed of that feeling, but that doesn't justify it.
The things that I am experiencing, are real. They aren't in my head and they aren't my imagination. While you guys can't verify this, and you can't
take my word for it, others are able to verify it. That is because it is happening to them as well. What we are doing together has potential to
change, people and the world. I am not joking or making grandiose proclamations (of course I am, that's what I do) but simply explaining behind the
scenes and our excitement. I am not a lynch pin or leader, I don't speak for or represent anyone. I am simply a piece to a puzzle, and I am happy to
be that. We all have special and unique skills in life and we are best served to utilize them. I am simply growing into what I always wanted and knew
I could be. I don't mean as some kind of Neo-spiritual guru or some nonsense like that. This is real world stuff, that can be applied by anyone. There
is a greater truth that can and should be learned by all, and this is just how one does that.
When these things first started happening I was scared that if I shared it, someone would tell me I was wrong, or show me I was wrong. I was scared
that they would do what I can do but do it better, or make me obsolete. I was scared that the story I began creating would be taken over by someone
else. I was being selfish and self centered even in my transformation, and that should be patently obvious to anyone as being incorrect. This isn't
about me at all, this is about us. I paid a severe price to be where I am today at this very moment, and many of the people in my life paid that price
If I am to truly make any difference in anyone's life I can't be like I was. I don't think that it is my destiny or fate or anything, it is just my
desire. I tell you guys I love you and you may think I am being trite or corny but I am serious. I love all of us, and I want happiness and joy for
all of us when we can get it. We have walked a long and hard road together for a long time, so long that we forgot where and when we started and we
forgot that we were all walking together. It is too easy to keep this to ones self and hoard it and suck out every last bit of potential, and most
have done that. Very few have given away freely what wasn't theirs to begin with and were usually met with a rope or an axe. That may sound dramatic
but it isn't, and history shows it going back as far as we do. That is a very real potential consequence for anything we do in this realm of ideas but
it didn't deter them and it won't deter me. This disrupts and turns institution on it's head, and institution doesn't like that.
This can't be bought or sold, claimed or kept. As soon as that happens it loses any magic it has or potential that magic could bring. Every single one
of us know that there is something more to this, some thing that we see or feel just on the periphery. We don't understand what it is or why we feel
it so we just ignore it and keep going. It nags at us when we are still and alone, and sometimes we decide to look at it but it often scares us so we
put it back in it's dark place. It doesn't help us at work, it doesn't help us at home, it doesn't help us with most of the things we value in this
material world so we think it can't help us at all. We were and are wrong though, that is all there is to help us. It just isn't the type of help we
thought we wanted.
I told you all we were doing all of this in this thread for a purpose, I asked you to trust me and to follow along and you did. I love you guys more
than I can ever express for trusting me and following along, I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I didn't know what that purpose was when I
started but over time it became very clear. I even tried to ignore that purpose and substitute my own, and was shown why I couldn't. I don't have any
guidance what so ever on what I am doing today and what I did yesterday. I have no idea if this is the right or wrong thing to do, I don't know if I
will be scolded or punished, or praised and congratulated. I am not doing it for that, I am doing it for us. I am trusting my instinct and doing what
I think is the right thing for the only cause that matters: US. All of us, young and old, sh!t head and saint. Not a single one of us is better or
worse than the rest. We all make bad decisions sometimes and we all deserve forgiveness sometimes.
I don't want to proselytize or start coming off crazy (lol) I just wanted to say good morning and I love you. I will have my best day ever today and I
sincerely hope you all do to. Do something to make yourself laugh as soon as you wake up, and you will have no choice but to smile and spread it to
everyone you see. I will talk to you guys later.
I challenge you all, every day tell yourself you love you, and 1 person whom you normally would never say it. Tell a stranger you love them, and watch
magic in practice.
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