This idea of change, or the transformational essence of being-in-the-universe, has almost the quality of the Godly to it.
While some people hate time and see in it all the troubles that afflict humanity, I see time in exactly the opposite way: as something which can be
invoked in times of stress to coherently reposition our consciousness vis-à-vis the object inflicting us with anxiety, to say, "this situation will
change, be patient".
Indeed, this is an example of a "coherent organization of information". Time, in fact, means change. If I'm not particularly liking what I'm
feeling right now, and if I know, in fact, that my feeling state is largely a function of impersonal processes like digestion (food we eat), rest (how
much sleep we get) and activity (not being active enough), in addition to temperature (hot or cold), electromagnetic, chemical and atmospheric
pressure effects, then I am organizing my consciousness (mind-brain) to literally correlate itself with external constraints which become known to
humans through the signs we experience in our consciousness.
The idea behind this notion is that the feelings we feel can be managed by certain beliefs, which have to correspond in some essential way to the
previous dynamics that have organized our nervous systems. The KKK fanatic only believes what he does because his "semiotic background" - basically
a traumatizing environment where people are always upset about something, raising their voices, speaking cynically and negatively from tensed and
agitated bodies: there is this fundamental dysregulation to their autonomic nervous system which repeatedly compels belief states from dynamically
enlivening feeling states that semiotically contain the information that formed their early-life feelings around the other's they were forced to
When one accepts and understands that our bodies contain information i.e. our musculature, flexion or absence of flexion, necessarily "under-write"
the emotional and cognitive states we embody, it'll become apparent how infants and dogs and chimps understand adult human behavior: through their
sensorimotor dynamics. Such a view means that what is taken into account is the meaning of the behaviors we show: the dog see's a reflexive turn of
the head by me, in terms of the dynamical-orientedness of my intentions. My body already says whether I am or am not interested in relating to you.
Baby's, Dogs, and other animals, can sense when we function from an egocentric (self-concerned) or allocentric (other-concerned) perspective, and
hence, respond to us from those expressed cues. Facial-language, eye gaze and body movement conveys this information. It is more accurate than most
people are willing to admit, so conditioned are we by the ludicrous individualism of the contemporary cultures we inhabit, that many people would
consider the idea of another person knowing them and their motivations for acting better than they do - simply from a study of the subject matter in a
scientific way - would and in fact does annoy them. The mind that secretly knows that it hides from itself does not want to be perturbed from its
slumber and awakened into a state of cognitive dissonance. No one likes stress, and yet, the only way to change a system that is on the road to
destroying itself and all other living systems is to try to make the transition easier - to remind the person that "what reality feels like from here
is fundamentally different from what reality will feel like when you pass through this".
Scary states of perception often make their mark through our stomachs, which is fitting, given that the stomach literally "digests" the things we
eat i.e. put into our selves. Perhaps, indeed, the emptiness in our stomach which accompanies a state of depression, fear or intense anxiety is a
semiotic message from our gut to the brain: "you must suffer this to get back to a place of coherence", or, perhaps, it is the voice of the
other-side, the part of us that indulges in behaviors that deny basic semiotic processes, speaking, or commenting, on the minds desires to care - to
help itself - but which the stomach-vagus-right brain network considers threatening to its functional logic. After all, the body wants to survive:
it'll even push us to damaging relationships through dissociative processes, just to keep that enlivenment coming: the enlivenment of "winning", of
chasing after sex, toys, games etc. Your brain wants that - and since you are in fact your brain, "you want that". The you, furthermore, can
paradoxically project itself to a future situation and know that "change will come", even as it experiences the effects of self-denial i.e. not
going after what you want and feel you need because you know, as a scientific fact, that a system which undergoes change will eventually find a new
stability, which for the experiencing consciousness essentially amounts to a new sense of self.
I have lived as multiple different selves, so much so that it is befitting to describe my life as transformations from "intensely self-absorbed and
criminalistics", to "devoutly religious" in an orthodox fundamentalist sort of sense, to finally, taking an interest in the sciences and its
simultaneous objective withdrawal from what one wants to the case,
to a caring interest in the many phenomena of the world which attract human
I have absolutely no doubt that each stage constituted an important transformation, from a state of complete unrefinedness i.e. a maniacal belief in
my own invulnerability, to a point, or threshold, where traumatic experiences affected me, such as a nervous breakdown, a state of general fatigue
which can truthfully strike anyone. The solution, as it is for anyone who wants to live, was to "find some ultimate meaning". Everyone lands on
something - some idea, which they use to regulate themselves. No one is exempt from this process.
Yet, unlike the vast, vast majority of people, religion didn't satisfy my needs - or resolve my conflicts. Already being a massive reader, I kept
reading, with a particular sense that I didn't want to be a wishful person who thinks he knows the truth, without interacting with other knowledges.
I sensed, correctly, that fear underlies where we allow ourselves to look: the person who trusts reality doesn't fear to look. He looks wherever
others have found meaning, and, as mindfulness practice suggests, allows him or herself to non-judgementally gauge what the meaning of this is.
Science - not scientism - but the methodology of science, so simple and natural yet incredibly seldom practiced in its proper way, proved to be
exactly that sense of coherency that I liked earlier, but which seemed, if I just stayed on this path, as something which would yield dividends,
personally, spiritually, and, perhaps, financially too.
This is what I want people to know: that there are REAL people in this world who have touched the base of being, and have come to accept the necessity
of uncertainty not as a general truth, but as something that must be exercised when a reasonable point has been made, and we allow ourselves to be
swayed by reason i.e. by natures signs. If you and me are the same and apart of the same process, then change, of course, ought to come from without
as much or perhaps more than it can be said to come from within.