posted on Feb, 6 2005 @ 01:41 AM
Hi Blueknight. I agree with you 100%! I have never personally had a bad experience with a police officer but rather the opposite. I have never told
anyone this,......what I am about to say, is hard to admit, but here goes.
One day, I was cleaning my apartment, on the ground floor, I was 21. The doorbelll rang, so, I shouted 'one minute I'll be right there." My
husband ... then my fiance was at work, so I quickly put the plate in the cupboard and went to get the door. I open the door to see a police officer
standing there, and think ...'something happened'. Well, I was right, he asked if he could come in and did so. He then asked if my name was so and
so and I said 'yes." He then looked down, and then looked at me and said, "I'm sorry to have to tell you this , but, your father was found dead
this afternoon." I was kind of in shock and, asked, "How did you know where to find me?" He told me my father had my picture and had my number on
the back of it along with my address. I was really stunned to hear that, really kind of taken aback. He then asked if I had anyone there with me, I
told him No,,and began to cry "Why did he do this to me, why?"He asked me if I was okay anough to be left alone or if I wanted to be taken to a
family members house. I told him, ....no,,,just that I was stunned as my father kind of disowned me,and that my father had not seen me in 10 years,
and that I had tried to get him to come visit me, but he flat out refused too. I told him I had tried everything but that my father was an alcoholic,
who committed crimes just to go to jail so he woud have a place to sleep and food to eat. I then told him, I had nothing that belonged to my father, I
had no memories, no keepsakes, and no confirmation or belief that he even loved me.He started to go, then asked if I would be home later, I said yes
and he left. I sat and cried and thught about a ot of what if's and maybe's.
Later that day he came again, by then I was so heartbroken, I was left to bury my father who I had not seen in years, one who I didn't even believe
He came in and handed me some paper, and said, "the lady who was taking care of him, said to give you this,..I hope it helps bring you some peace of
mind." I just looked at it and said Thank You to him as he left again, smiling and waving.
I sat down to read whatever was on the paper he gave me, and it said,wwell I won't teell the whole thing , too long,I will tell partially what was
"Dearest daughter, there have been so many times when I wanted to come see you to hug you and be there for you like a father should, but I can't.
How can I face you as a father, when I am ashamed of myself, and anyway I don't think you would look up to a person lke me, so by dodging you maybe
you will remember me as I used to be. I know I hurt you, and you have cried for me, and it seems like I was being cruel, but I stayed away because I
am sick, and I am on the streets living off of whatever I can get, and I don't want to show you what I have become. To me, you will always be my
baby, and know I love you very much, and that I did this for you, and for me.
I am so very proud of you, and if you see me you would not say the same thing, I am nobody, but I am a nobody who always loved his daughter."
After I read that I sobbed, I wanted to thank the policeman because this was the only thing I had that was of my father, I had nothing else. So, when
I saw him next I hugged him and explained why I did so. He told me he knew, that the woman who took care of my father told him, how many times I had
called there asking her to see if I could visit him, or if he wanted to come visit me, but my father always said no. I told him, he didn't have to do
what he did but because of it, I would not have to question if my father loved me for the rest of my life, that I knew and it was because of him
because he cared enough to get the letter for me, because he had compassion for another person.
I have so much respect for policemen, and I hope that this was not too depressing, it was to show that ..yes, cops are people too and.that they
also,.... have a big ole heart and a very caring side to them. I will never forget that officer.
[edit on 6-2-2005 by realorritt]