What is going on in your life, still cooking, still charming the world?
My plan has failed again but it was a lot of fun. Today I had a dream I had to make a presentation for some reason I was carrying the whole computer
around instead of an USB stick. And that bothered me but I'm fine everything was purple.
bahahaha.. Thats like my dreams. sometimes im like "why is the kitchen in 100 pieces that has to be put together for each order? wouldnt it be easier
to just have a regular kitchen?"
"is the opposite of an expert an impert?" he asked impertinently
still cooking still charming the world indeed. charmed kitty last night. she was laying next to me in a ball then just jumped on her back inside my
arm and put her arms around my chest then stared deep into my eyes, haha.. weird cat. im working 4 days on 3 days off at work all summer. A well
deserved weekly vacation. My new keys should show up at work today for my new apartment. the weather decided eF spring lets just go to summer so the
pool should be nice.
i cut my hair without a good mirror and waking up from an 'interesting' dream noticed it has some uneven spots but my scissors are nowhere? so I guess
Ill forgive my hair for now and maybe have another dream before work.
where are those scissors lolz
Edit: found em.. thats better.
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You cheap bastard cut your own hair? Hairdressers need some love too, they're people ffs...
You move? And got a pool? And 3 days off? And kitty love? Will she find you at your new place?
It sounds like you're doing good. Let me send you a TEOT(=hug) did you feel it?
aww thanks and yes I cut my own hair ha. Ill spend money on so many random things, its just I like to cut my hair I guess? Probably a similar reason
to why I walk everywhere. Its more of me just wanting to be left alone or something like that. Like Reverbs thats 4 miles away.. and im like yea its a
nice walk. reverbs ill give you a ride. please no ty.
kitty is my housemates cat. Lucy. she's staying here.
gawd they made truffles the other night. herbal truffles Ill miss them and the dog and cat. Time to move on again. Life never stops until it stops.
I used to walk everywhere too but this winter just made me crazy lazy. And somehow I didn't get out of this phase yet. It's raining so much and ...
But I need a new adventure. So who knows maybe I just pack my backpack and start heading east. I'm thinking Greece. And once I'm there I wanted to do
Israel anyways so who knows.
It's almost June?! Can you believe it?
Right now Germany is drowning me in burocracy. And whenever I start a magic thing and fail again I need a few weeks to recover.
I don't know. Life, huh? It's all about moving on.
Ive been slide tackled so many times from behind I forget Im playing life and not universal footbal sometimes.
Then I remember Im playing my own game.
gawd I was a great defender in soccer when I played. I got called for slide tackles so much and it annoyed me. Im going for the ball and I slipped on
the wet grass.
the woo is stoping the woo because you want the woo and want to know it, but I don't think it wants you to know it. I think we are more powerful than
the woo and if we were allowed to see it in all its glory we would be the master.. I think we scare it.
you guys are the best.
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I can't do that I always feel like I'm missing something. I need to spell it all out for me. If I'm not it's like a riddle might get away
unchallenged. And we can't allow that to happen, can we?
It's because of the writing I guess. And I have to keep an eye on my brain.
But I admit it might also be what makes things so ... heavy(?)
It's what I do I chat with me the universe who listens and might not.
I love a good storm. Enjoy it for me too the force of nature. Earthforce(!)
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the other way to do magic is like being in love.
when your life has a mind of its own like that.
being humble or grateful allows more magic.
my life right now i guess my day and now my night has been like a beautiful song. It doesnt even make sense how it all fits together.
ill try to say it..
i wake up after drinking. i start cleaning my room to move out. my roomie is already cleaning the house. we never wake up that early. we vibe together
in a weird way where everything is clean as hell in 1 hour. i go to work and meet this person i work with their mom. old gm from 10 years ago gives me
a bunch of snacks.. im broke.. i mean like days worth of food. my chef gave me 10$.. i prepped eveeything for tomorrow.
its all so smooth.
i joke around a lot. someone said i should do standup. it was a synchro because i was thinking about it. I make people laugh a lot.
then the thunderstorm and my hot hell kitchen was cool windy rainy lightning y.. yumm. I get off work and my friend moves me into my new place. its
way nicer than i remembered from seeing it. i turn on youtube and wiz khalifa is on joe rogan? i was thinking about my old
Party Days listening to him. and ok, now here he is in two hours.. enlightened wiz. odd. but mary jane has a
habit of doing that to the right minds.
i started playing music and wiz comes on.. then b.o.b.. then another oh TI... its a lot of my favorite music from my most fun days.
what I wrote probably sounds silly. but it was just so amazing. now im sitting in my new bed without another beer. everything is too new to be
comfortable sleeping for me. but im like spiritualy smiley.
its like the whole day was set up for me lol.
i explained it like 75% right. ehh..
you are too German not to think.
so you can be precise but not expansive..
do expansive... glass the mountain ranges, then drill in with mind to get that gold.
I see a lot because Im not in the way of my sight.
then i use my memory to use my mind on the experience. in the moments i dont use my mind much. i use my beingness.
its like joe rogans way of saying it. like you're trying to catch slippery fish in your hands. its a flow state.
look up flow state. thats when you shoot the ball from the 3 point line and you already know its going in, but you didnt think how to move your hands.
being in the zone..
Reverberation Echo Station
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I know you're right. But I still want to argue about it.
Which is basically solid proof you're right...
I don't know I'm too dark and brainheavy. That's because I'm kind of scared of emotions. They've lead me astray before. And if I don't be dead serious
it might do that again.
You definitely gave me something to think about.
We've talked about how we both were used to warn tptb right? And I just feel it's... like Cassandra and Troy. "It will be destroyed! Troy will burn!"
"Yeah right crazy bitches"
A feeling of incoming doom. Or maybe not doom but an end of the world as we know it. Like a butterfly in its cocoon worrying if it will know what to
do with the strange things growing on its back.
Do I have to tell the other caterpillars what's coming? Am I not living up to the role I was given? How can I convey what I can't grasp?
Stuff like that.
To me the woo wasn't trickery it was the most beautiful, exciting and true bliss experience possible. I'm like an addict, I have felt heaven and now
everything just feels dull and pointless.
But because I have felt that way and now nothing really happens my feelings must have been wrong.
I'm trying to force the woo to let everybody experience the same thing and we all have one gigantic love fest.
Rationally I know that's not something I can achieve, emotionally that's kind of making me suicidal. Life is not worth living without that kind of
love, bliss and excitement I have felt.
You're kind of lucky from my point of view that to you it was the opposite.
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