posted on Sep, 8 2017 @ 05:49 PM
Boom! Hello Shed people!
I just woke up for a little while. It is now 01:22 AM in Finland. Feeling disoriented, i drink (alcohol) again but not in an abusive way. I have a
past of drinking until i pass out or until i run out of alcohol. And i have my sober periods. Sometimes weeks, sometimes months. But lately i have
drank in a moderate way, slight buzz but nothing to be worried about. I don't know why, but i am happy about it.
Night Star: yeah i recommend having tacos, good thing you put that down for your memo of things to buy when you shop for groceries next time. I made a
massive load of the meat sauce, first with tacos and during this weekend it is to be eaten with spaghetti or potatoes.
So technically it is Saturday now, an hour and a half after midnight following Friday. But my "Tomorrow" does not begin until i wake up after a night
of sleep, it does not begin (for me) when it actually begins, after midnight when day changes. No alcohol for me this Saturday, i have to be in a good
shape (no hangover) on Sunday. My best friend has a 3 year old daughter and i meet them both. The girl is a little positive ray of sunshine. Always
happy, and she turns my mood into better always too. She likes animals too just like her father and me. And the father has 2 cats, i think i will buy
some deluxe cat food for them. And for the little 3 year old lady, i already have bought her a bag of 100% organic raisins. The mother of the little
kid likes to keep things natural and organic, so not much candy or ice cream, but sometimes.
Oh and about children in general: i have faith in them. Future generations. Everyone's happiness or unhappiness is related to them. The little tiny
boys and girls of today, some day they are adults and may discover a way of neutralizing nuclear waste, find a way to have clean and risk-free energy,
end wars and other good stuff. And i feel that if i help children now, if i play with them and share my knowledge of the world, maybe the children
will help me when i am old and weak. I have plenty of friends and family members who have children but for some reason i don't want to be a father
myself. But yeah, god bless children and animals, they have some purity that many adults seem to have lost during their path of life.
Now another cigarette and back to bed after that, trying to sleep some more.