a reply to: Kali74
"I can't share these thoughts with my family, so I'm using you, whoever is reading... sorry. Maybe this is the kind of sht people should know though,
especially if they are facing similar or have a loved one facing similar. We can't always put a brave face on and be these serene portraits of silent
suffering as hard as we might try. We may bite your head off at what seems so innocent... a dirty dish left in the sink as my poor son is all too
aware of. When everything takes so much more effort than it used to, things like that can make you see red. Then there's times when you honestly feel
just fine, happy and boom suddenly you're sobbing."~Kali
You have the nurse and the gentleman to talk to, as well as ATS. I know it's hard to be positive.
But at the moment you do have person to go through this with.
I Know obviously I can't say what you're are actually feeling . All I can do is offer is positive support.
I was just talking to a family member when I saw this thread.
He's was going through HOSPICE and the doctor told him "He was a dead man". It made him so angry he ended up in Remission and is now home. He is going
to the beach this week.
Though he has to show NED(No evidence of Disease) for 3 to 5 yeas, he is 80 and preferably opt to live his life.
To be honest, LOL. When a thread gets Heated and you show up. I get quiet and afraid.
When you get going, Hhoooo Weeeee! look out!
You are very Passionate and well read on subjects.
Be Brave. You are the boss of you're body. Beat Cancers Butt...
It's ok to get angry. It's ok to cry. You are not alone since you have support from a fellow patient. And once you are ready...... Tell your family.
Willing to bet they probably suspect someting isn't right. They will except and help you.
I didn't tell my family when I had Colon Cancer. In fact I told Noone. But after losing 50 lbs, I couldn't hide it. But support stormed in and I
found a bit of hope. I also refused to except I had cancer, I was 27 years old.
I will think of you and send good vibes.🙏