Originally posted by kancay
ok. i read ur post and i alot of what u said made sense. see im 18 but i think that i have had a calling in my soul if you will. the farthest i can
remember vagely is in egypt, where i knew some of the royal house and such. but now this lifetime is so different. ive never felt such anxiety ever
that i can remember, and i think it has something to do with america, like this will be the breading place for something and this frea is so
overwhelming that ive planned to leave america over the summer.
Typically, two lifetimes won't be the same. There are different things to be learned in different lifetimes. Your time spent on this earth in
mortal forms (and keep in mind, it doesn't even necessarily have to be earth... what I speak of encompases the entirety of creation, not just this
one planet) is to teach you lessons of existence. One lifetime, you could learn of love. Another lifetime, of hate. Yet another lifetime, of the
occult. The number of lessons are great, yet the end goal is simple - to finally, permanently leave the mortal coil. To forever be able to live in
the world of the immortals - the spirit world. The problems you face in life are always getting you closer to the lesson you must learn in that life.
Your choices, decisions, and learning from the consequences of such are how you learn. It is not always evident what your life lesson is, so don't
live your life trying to figure it out. Just know that you will learn, or you will be given another chance to learn it. Souls that are still
learning are always given another chance, so don't fear failure, just make sure you know how to learn from it. Your choices are yours to make.
I also sense great confusion or angst from you. It's not uncommon to feel this once you become aware of what you are, ancient or not, a spiritual
awakening is always tough at first. It does have a way of turning your world upside down.
but how you talked about those who teach others, like ancients, i believe i could be one of them, but to no avail. i havent been able to reach
much people because they think im wacco or something and its really fustrating to deal with those that cant understand. in fact this the reason why i
came here, to see if i could find some help as to who is calling me and such and what for. and let me tell you, being called for 4yrs straight is not
something u blow off, expecially when it keeps calling you.
Given that I know little of you, I feel it necessary to remind you of one thing - don't judge the age and wisdom of your soul by your most distant
past life regression. In the spirit world, time and space mean nothing. It's possible that your memories of Egypt are from your last lifetime, and
that before that, you lived a life as a peasant in medieval Europe.
Don't search for people to teach. Those that want to learn will seek you out. If you truly are an ancient, the people with the potential to learn
will know that about you just from simply being around you. They'll come to you. Before you take on a student, however, I'd highly advise learning
about yourself first. Have you found your spirit guide, totem animal, or other entity that walks with you? These entities that surround you are
probably your best resource in learning about yourself. They are typically of sorts that have either transcended, never lived mortally, or are
otherwise unconstrained by the mortal shell. They can tell you of your past before this lifetime, and they can help show you the doors that you need
to open to further discover who you are, both in the mundane world, and in a spiritual sense. If you have acheived astral travel (and don't worry if
you can't - not everyone can), it makes talking with these entities all that much easier. If you aren't able to travel astrally, then call to them
during meditation, and they will typically be able to communicate with you through one means or another. Many life to use riddles or metaphoric
stories to communicate. Rarely will an entity just blurt out hard truth. This is because the best form of discovery is experience. They'll show
you the doors, it's up to you to open them and step through.
The calls that you hear are most likely from a guide that is trying to contact you. Meditate on these words or sensations that you feel tugging at
you. They'll answer. You'll learn.
but i swear i cant deal with this life. the people are ignorant and follow the herd without any thoughtprocess of their own. and well, this
life hasnt been as easy as i once knew. its just that all this fusteration and unknown and just all of it makes me wanna just let go and come back in
another life and start all over again, but i know that it could be worse for running if you will. um, i dunno. if u could maybe help me out a little
then i would so appreciate it. i seem to not have the time for some reason, or just the feeling of urgency i have calling me... but you seem to be the
most full of knowledge that i have recently encountered, and i would appreciate some help if you would. my email is blianka@hotmail.com, and i thank
you if you even give me some kind of email, even if it is to leave you alone...
Life is never easy. It's a fact of life. It's not easy because without challenge, you'll never learn anything. Most people are sheep, and are
happy with that. For most people, ignorance is bliss. You won't find many of them on here.
As far as letting go and starting over, remember this: as much as death is not something to be feared, it is also not something to actively seek
either. You'll find that in the long run, seeking out a premature death will only prolong the time it takes for you to learn your life lessons, and
keep you that much further from transcendence.
The best advice I can give you at the moment is to keep looking inwards until you feel you truly know yourself. At that point, practice what you have
learned. Gain confidence in yourself and your abilities. Keep an open dialogue with any entities that walk with you... they can teach you much. If
you look for literature on occult practices, stay away from the books that cater to the sudden mainstream interest in alternative religion. Pagan
religions are quickly becoming major religions in the world (I think Wicca is currently larger in the US than Judaism). With this popularity, comes
many hack writers trying to cash in on the "latest thing." For instance, stay away from *anything* with "Llewelyns" on it. They're worthless.
I can't really reccomend any good books on the subject, since all of the knowledge I needed to develop came with my awakening. I'm sure there are
others in ATS (several of whom are probably reading this thread) that can reccomend books to you (and anyone that does have a book to recommend,
please do, for the sake of another awakened soul).
Finally, and above all else, remember this: You are the one that controls your destiny. Our free will is the greatest gift that we have. Use it
wisely.
If you are comfortable with this, I'd prefer to keep correspondence here in the public threads. Not so much because I don't want to talk to you
personally, but rather because I feel that our dialogue may also benefit anyone else reading this that may have similar questions, yet not post them
for whatever reason. As long as I'm answering questions and offering advice, I might as well keep things available to anyone who wishes to read.
If you have a more personal question that you're not comfortable posting in public, you can feel free to U2U me, and perhaps we'll take it to email
then.
I just prefer an open dialogue over anything else.
One last thought, and then I'll wrap this up... I promise. I am not actively seeking students. My mundane life doesn't afford me the time to
properly teach someone. I'm also *highly* selective about the students I choose because the methods I teach are certainly not for everyone. I'll
answer what questions I can, and I'll offer what advice I can, but I won't take on a full-time student. As far as the advice, the answers I give
may not be the ones you're expecting. You just need to ask the right questions.
), but the rest of you can. 
