posted on May, 13 2017 @ 06:54 AM
a reply to: Night Star
My dear friend, I hope you find strength and are surrounded with your happy memories as a suit of armor against any sadness that tries to creep in.
I was extremely fortunate to have had two mothers and although times got rough over the many years, I know now that everything that happened had to
happen just the way it did. It prepared me (sort of) for my own challenge of motherhood. Neither one is with us anymore physically but, I feel their
presence all around me, enveloping me when times are tough, protecting me still.
You remember that I cared for my mother right up until the bitter end. My birth mother was living across the country at the time she died but, I was
with her by phone with my half brother every step of the way. They died a little over 3 months apart from each other. I selfishly felt like an orphan,
like my place had been lost, I felt weak, terrified and breathless as like hanging over the edge of a cliff with no rigging, no harness, no safety
It helped me to think of their job here being done. It was time for them to rest. It was just time for them to move on in their journey. It was time
to push me out of the nest and let me learn to fly, on my own. No rigging, no harness, no safety net.
I hope in raising my own daughters now that I can remember their words of wisdom and call upon them when needed, remember their patience and gain
strength from it, engulfed in their unconditional/encompassing love and always give that and more to my children.
They were two of the most interesting, fearless, supportive, wise and loving individuals I have met and the world is a little less sunny without them
in it however the sun's still shining albeit a little less brightly.