posted on Apr, 18 2017 @ 03:32 PM
Me, Myself, and I - My Story
---- PART ONE
Writing this was much needed to get if off of my chest and for all to understand me better. I am keeping this as short as I can so feel free
to ask away any questions.
Tears are falling as I write this as I am listening to the radio and every once in a while a song will play that reminds me of my late wife. Music
was her world. I'll try to explain that later as I go along here.
My first change in life's plans for me took place when I was 17 years old. I made good grades in high school and was planning on going to college the
next fall. Shortly before Christmas my plans were changed when I flipped a motorcycle my dad had bought me. I don't remember the exact term but I
suffered a traumatic brain injury. I couldn't walk as my left side was paralyzed. Most of my memory of my life was gone as well. I recovered from
the paralysis and learned to walk, mostly on my own, as insurance only paid for a small amount of physical therapy. I had a teacher who I knew teach
me at home and I managed to graduate.
To this day I have problems walking not falling, and stairs are hell for me to use. Some words take a bit of time to come out of my mouth as I have
trouble finding the right word to say. As I said, I lost most of my 17 years of memory and felt I was just born having to learn everyday things
I worked low paying jobs, got married, and bought a house. The marriage didn't last but a few years. I think this was her fault for not being ready
to marry. The house was more than I could afford so I moved to a cheap apartment. The sad part was having to get rid of a dog and several cats. I
bought a stuffed toy cat to keep me company as I was all alone now. Worked as a security guard until I got burned out of the low pay and long hours.
Found work as a photographer, making a few friends along the way. The company shut down and I worked for a few months for one of the cruise lines.
That was way too much work so I quit and ended up moving to another state and lived live with one of my photography friends. I worked in the travel
industry for about 12 years.
Shortly after the move and starting the new job I met the woman I would marry. She had back problems and was very bi-polar. Music was always a part
of her life. She took an internship for a Grammy Award winning musician. Later she worked as a music. Overall she worked with or at least met over
the phone about 100 musicians/celebrities.
Towards the end of my travel industry career I started missing too much work. First there was my encounter with poison oak. Followed by missing days
due to my wife having back surgery or weight reduction surgery. My work duties had doubled at this time as well making my job impossible. I told
them that I couldn't mentally process all of this and needed a reassignment. Unfortunately there was no change available and they let me go. I was
receiving Supplemental Security Income (SSI) at this time for some unknown reason and with my wife's Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI) we
could somewhat get by. I couldn't work anyway as my wife was bedridden and needed a nurse of sorts to help with her needs.
With the help of the city we were living in I was able to go to college. A neighbor took care of my wife while I was gone. My plan was to get a
degree as an occupational therapy assistant. I chose that field as it would help my wife to recover and I wanted to get in the medical field. This
was a two year program that I could handle. I completed year one, the basic college courses and begun year two. Unfortunately someone was busy
texting instead of driving and rear ended my car. this hurt my lower back. I could hardly walk at all. Because of this I had to end any college
plans that I had.
I took care of my wife the best that I could over the next three years.