originally posted by: Neil4No1
I worded it that way on purpose. Thank you for proving my point. It has everything to do with being transgender.
Listen friend, discussing this with you is pointless because you're a hard-headed, opinionated know-it-all that's being intentionally obtuse so know
that I'm writing this for others that may be reading that are capable of overcoming their willful ignorance and recognize that all these distorted
ideas you're trying to promote are pure bunkum.
Next, you've obviously never known someone transgender or you wouldn't be positing such absurd questions and notions. It's also possible that you
don't know who you're talking to and you should know that I highly resent you telling me what my life is about or about how I think or feel. Even
using the best language I can string together it is still not going to help you understand this better because 1) I don't think you want to and 2) I
don't think you can.
To clear the air here and to avoid your confusion, I am one of these people you seem to think to you have all figured out. I can tell you that your
opinions and ideas about all this have been formed by lack of experience and knowledge about this subject and are based your feelings and what you
think you know rather than facts or the familiarity of what trans people are like or deal with in life.
I'm not typical or representative of anyone else's experience and can't and don't speak for everyone or even the majority of people like me. I was
gender dysphoric as a child. I have no memories of ever thinking I was a boy although it was evident from my anatomy, that's what others thought I was
supposed to be but I knew this was wrong. Fundamentally wrong and it was confusing and painful. Not confusing because I had any doubts if I was a boy
or a girl but confusing because I was
a girl and couldn't figure out how come I had boys parts? What cruel joke was this?
I was never a "normal" boy nor was I ever perceived to be one because I wasn't and this was evident to everyone from a young age and throughout my
primary school years. I've never had the personality, attributes or interests of a boy because I simply never was one. My friends were girls, my toys
were dolls and Barbies, Easy-Bake Ovens and tea party sets and nothing in my life was different from any young girl's except the way I looked and the
way I had to dress and the disturbing fact that my body was different. I hated being sex segregated in school because I was forced to line up with the
boys and didn't know why I had to be. My distress was so evident, my parents let me grow out my hair in the third grade to help me feel better about
myself even though that was against the conventions of the time (1963/64).
Sparing the details and unpleasant stories of violence, bullying and social ostracization, by the time I was a teenager and gained a bit of agency, I
began to present myself more as the girl I'd always known myself to be. In modern times, I would have socially transitioned to living fully as a girl
which would have made my life much better but that simply wasn't done during the era I grew up. Still, by the time I was 16, strangers I didn't know
perceived me and treated me as a girl and things were finally starting to feel like the way they always should have been. I began hormones and female
puberty at 17 and at 18, socially completed transition, name change, legal status etc. I proceed to complete full medical transition including sex
reassignment surgery. I'm guessing this was probably long before you were even born?
I was never a boy and I have never been a man. I can't tell you what if feels like to be the "opposite gender" because that's not my experience. I've
only ever been one gender.
How does one feel that they are the opposite sex when never having been it? Their body has been what it is their whole life, yet somehow
something is missing?
Your jumping around intermingling sex and gender makes this difficult to respond to. I didn't know what the "opposite sex" felt like until I had a
vagina and had sex. My body had never felt right, much like I was born with an unwanted deformity that I knew wasn't how things were supposed to be.
Don't you think that if I didn't know I was supposed to have a vagina that I'd have been pretty upset waking up in the hospital as a female? Nothing
has ever been so right or perfect or the way things should have been from the start.
How do they know without that other sexes experience? What is a man? What is a woman? One can only know the other thru observation. One may
look or act the opposite sex, but they will never be the opposite sex.
Well, I know I am a woman because that is my only lived experience. I have no idea what it is like to be a man so can't tell you what that feels like.
As far as "never being the opposite sex", I am female in the ways that matter to me and to others. Unless I tell you, you are not going to know that I
wasn't born this way so your invisible chromosome thing and all these other things you have in mind don't mean a damn thing to my life. Yes, I've
never had ovaries and a uterus and have never given birth or had a period because I was born male. I'm not an idiot or delusional about that but for
all other practical aspects I am female and have been for the vast majority of my 62 years.
A man may act or feel more feminine and a girl may act or feel more masculine. No problem whatsoever there as people have always acted more
feminine or masculine than societys standards of what a man or woman is supposed to act like or be. But that's act like, not are.
You just don't get it that people like me ARE. Regardless whether I'm masculine or feminine, I've always known that I WAS a girl and being born male
was simply a fluke of nature or a mistake of the most Machiavellian kind. I have no explanation for this other than to give some credence to the vast
majority of scientific and medical evidence that having gender dysphoria is neurobiological in nature i.e. the wiring and structures of my brain due
to in utero development. All of this research is fine and dandy but fails to take into account the spirit, consciousness and the soul side of things
that come from deep inside and don't need explanation. I knew what I was and know what I am because I do.
Transvestites and drag queens are even ok. All of these are similar but in differing degrees. Any further than that tho is a tipping point
towards mental illness, ie: mind/body don't match so let me butcher my body instead of fix my mind.
Well, you can't fix what ain't broke or what is hard-wired in. People have been trying throughout the modern age with everything from therapy, drugs,
institutionalization, electro-convulsive shock treatment and even lobotomy. Severe gender dysphoria is crippling and disabling, drives people to
suicide and ruins lives. Transition, hormones and surgery have decades and decades of proven history of improving the quality of these lives when all
other methodologies have been unsuccessful. Could anything in the world change your mind about being a man? What do you propose to do to change the
mind of the transsexual? Nothing because you can't. Therefore, adapting the body to fit the mind is the only recourse to bring these things in
alignment and resolve the crushing feelings of dysphoria.
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