a reply to: Breakthestreak
When sitting alone how many "selves" does one percieve as existing? None are present except the "you" taken as a self in that moment... however;
memory is not you, there is no trace of a you in it... the same as sitting there contemplating the first question posed.
Things were arising and passing; many different concepts and attachments of experience, many different arisings and passing un-noticed due to focus
elsewhere on something one thought more important at that moment.
Thought is not self it is an evaluation of experience in a quasi past in that moment missing the present turning into a future... it is a constant day
dream and not reality to be in such a state.
The I am does not think; the ego self is asleep in unawareness of the present moment in which all is occuring.
Writing this is cause to step out of the center of being... to communicate what cannot be grasped rotely but only experienced.
Of course; these moments lost in thought are going to cross paths when dream and a moment of clarity collide, like two wave lengths crossing between
dream and wakfulness.
Say a mantra and keep the mind on it, a two syllable one over and over while sitting the first part of the mantra inhalation universe in second part
exhalation universe out. Pay attention to the sensation at the tip of the nose if the "mind" wanders pull it back. Eventually it will stay put... then
drop the mantra doing the same thing. An experience called bliss or rapture will arise as thought ceases. Is this enlightenment? Yes, just a glimpse
of it. Once that state becomes the constant inverse to the prattling on the mind normally did? Then it is total.
When not sitting one can think exactly what they are doing; walking, left foot, right foot, feeling the sensations of pressure and contact thinking if
the possible worlds and life one is destroying with each step or has without an care or concern or second thought previously. Sweeping; back and forth
conscious watching the bristles press into the floor noticing the pressure variations to catch more or less grains of sand, dirt and other debris, the
speed which causes more or less dust to arise. The same in each activity... then the state of calmness and deliberate action arises, one can see the
intent is simply that the intent is to walk, or clean the floor etc etc it is not off building and day dreaming out of the moment but right there.
Eventually, one moves in the same manner the mind ceases to have an anchor outside of being drifting around like clouds in the sky. One is fully
present in awareness of simply being... of course, in this state of simply seeing where labels and thought has ceased? Sound still persists, dropping
attachment and labels of what is heard also is suggested, same with taste/smell, touch... to further progress. Hearing can become the most difficult,
as one becomes more and more assualted or triggered to grasp and attach to the mundane arising.
Let go of such things as they are conditioned arising dependent on others karma or intent for them to arise and to pass... such people thing they can
name, label or compell in order to "control" or "embody" one not oneself as a vehicle... the reasoning? Those disemboded seeking one such as hungry
ghosts, that desire and crave all sorts of things but cannot fulfill them without some willing container to allow them to do so. Of course it is
silliness as such do not have control over their own desires and cravings, so they seek paths of power to control and manipulate instead of go back to
practice and free themselves from the hells that they keep making worse and worse for themselves when trying to embody others.
Guilt from such mindlessness is an anomaly, like the commerical "You are not you; when you are hungry." Such a thing is the same... out of body
practitioners need no practice as they are already out of body the same as others; day dreaming, alseep, unaware, controlled, compelled in expression
of being that one takes or mistakes as a self.
Of course those using out of body experiences to control and manipulate others; will end up as such hungry ghosts, in a constant torment of desire and
passion that cannot be satiated, stuck in the wheel or cycle of becoming just the same as those they tempt... but in awareness, there is the ego
saying oh no this is me, mine or an I experiencing such a thing when that is actually unawareness that one is asleep and unaware they are harnessing
or hosting such as a guest that wants to become host in ones "vehicle" or body.
Impermance. There is a way out o such no matter how entrenched one may feel they are stuck in that cycle... truth in speech, leads to pure intent in
the world of duality, better than negative intent as it leads to lower states of existence... yet still one of bias in pure and impure arisings,
moment to moment to moment where is such a thing except in attachment and a bias? It becomes a circular attachment... to do or not to do becomes a
question one can ponder; better to ask oneself what the intent for such is; as it builds the karmic chains of dependence for such to arise the
habitual seed to grow into something one may later regret as it is a want and not really a need... impermanence.
How to exist without intent? After the speech is truth, the mind becomes truth as in empty and void of any I or ego it simply just is; this is when
the investigation of the emptiness of all arising phenomina of the senses becomes important to consider. Contact is the five senses in total that will
give rise to binding oneself to percieve an ego of self an I; one of differentiation from all else in bias of that grasping and attachment. Of course
none of that is reality; it is a percieved or co-dependent arising on past karma or attachments as they rise from past effects one was cause for in
intent whether good or bad positive or negative.
Touch is contact in total, what does the eye touch, the ear touch, the tongue or nose touch, the skin touch? It matters not in such graspings or
attachments as that leads to discursve thinking concepts not reality as it is arising and passing.
All of the above words are only known or grasped in a rote understanding called comprehension; direct understanding of them as a past or current
experience as one exists is simply knowing; without need for explaination... it is just what it is without any need for definition, if one desires
such a thing? Then it is their mind and attachment moving and not ones own one's own simply percieves what is arising and passing without a need for
the "what"... if a what is required? Seeing, seeing, seeing, hearing, hearing, hearing, smelling, smelling, smelling, tasting, tasting, tasting... or
simply: Contact, contact, contact. Asing and passing in and out of the void or perception in the sense in which it was or is percieved to arise.
The present moment always arises; the attempt at grasping emptiness; gets the sound of one hand clapping in appreciation at the effort to help with
the hand not present to clap; so they may grasp what cannot be caught.