I tip the bottle back and prop myself up against the cold steel of the garbage cans. Nothing like a shot of whiskey to keep ya warm on a cold winters
night. I could feel bitter cold creep in through my jacket. Pulling up the collar so it covered my neck, I sit and ponder my life in the darkest hours
of the night. It's too cold to fall asleep. If you learn one thing while living on the streets, you learn to never close your eyes on the coldest of
I also knew that I should keep moving. Meh, I'm too old to keep moving. This body has seen it all, been through good times and bad.
I drift off
into my thoughts, remembering the good old days when I had tons of money and family and a roof over my head. Now, though, that's all gone. When the
stock market crashed, it took everything from me...and everyone.
Now, I'm just an old bum on the street, begging for food and money, taking life one day at a time. I snap out of my trance, damn, I was almost
asleep. You fool! You never go to sleep in below zero temperatures!
I remember my dog, he was a good dog, the only one who stayed with me
through everything. Of course he was old, and even in his last days, he followed me around wherever I went. I wish I had him with me know.
I know, no sleeping! But, would it actually be so bad? To fall asleep and never wake up? Let the cold carry me away, let the frigid wind take my
breath from me? I try to stand up but my legs are numb. Rocking back and forth I take another long swig from my bottle then let it drop loosely from
my hand to the littered ground next to me. My gaze is captured by something that only I can see and as the sun breaks the horizon my lifeless body
lays there, staring blankly into the distance.
Well, that was an exciting life. I was up on top, fell down, worked my way back up, and then gave up. Like riding a roller coaster. Mostly I was an
alright guy though. Tried to provide for my wife and family, but , I still had a bit of karma left from my pirate days. So, I guess mostly that is
taken care of now.
Here, in the place between worlds, you have a better understanding of your mistakes. You are not involved in the life, you are looking at it like an
outsider would. Makes for easier learning...hopefully you remember the lesson for the next life though. The goal is to work your way up to the first
level, the final tier. Then, if you make it to that one, you can finally get off this rock.
The rub is...you only know that information here, in the place between worlds. Once you get thrown back into the rat race...you forget. Your only hope
is that you remember your mistakes, and that you don't have to pay back in karma points what you did wrong in your last life. Karma really is a
"we've been hit! we've been hit! We are going down!" My co-pilot yells this in the cabin, when we are the only two people in the plane. He is in full
panic mode, as if he was never trained for this. Of course, I already know we are going down. And...also, that we've taken fire and been hit. Panic is
not what you are taught in the Air Force. I don't know how this kid got through training, but he was really pissing me off.
Right, so, we are over enemy territory. There's two options. I can still make it out to sea and crash, or I can try to make it to the border and
crash. But this kid, he needs to shut up and start thinking. I don't have time for panic. I got a two year old boy and a wife back home that I
promised I would return to.
"It's ok, kid. I promise you I'm gonna live. And if you want to live too, you need to start helping me out here. We are going for the border, which
means I need my co-pilot to be my co-pilot. We may not make it all the way, but I'm hoping to get close enough that when we eject out it'll be just a
short hike afterwards." I look over to see the kid in lotus position practicing deep breathing exercises. WTF!!! If we both make it out of here alive,
I'm definitely gonna kill him.
"Did you hear me, lieutenant?" He lets out his breath and looks up at me.
"Yes Sir. We are gonna try to get as close as we can to the border and then we are ejecting out. You need me to help navigate, be your co-pilot. Yes I
heard you , Sir!"
I look over at him and roll my eyes. He was still practicing deep breathing exercises and only half way paying attention to the controls. A few
minutes later the last engine fails and I know it's time to go. I direct the kid to relay our coordinates to base, hoping that they will send someone
to retrieve us if we don't make it across the border, and I give him the order for bail out.
The kid, he was too panicked to follow even the simplest of instructions. He was fumbling around, searching for the ejection handle. I reach over to
pull it for him. The canopy comes off the plane, his seat flies out and I get hit in the head by his hands flailing wildly in the air. The blow
knocked me out for a few seconds.
I wake up just in time to see the nose of the plane crash into the jungle trees...my last thoughts are "it figures the whiney ass kid would be the one
to live". A few moments later, The planes explodes into a fiery inferno, with me still inside it.
Whelp, at least I had a good life. A loving, devoted family, a good career. And, I did die with honor, defending my country. If it wasn't for that
whiney ass kid I would've had a longer life. Self sacrifice should get me bonus points though.(even if it was unintentional) Maybe I'll finally get to
the next level.
This is where it's all decided. I'm at the next passing. I'm trying to figure out where I go from here. Was I a good enough person to get to level
one? Or did I mess up too much and need to go back to level seven? I wish they would let you remember this stuff for your next life...at least then
you would know what you're there for.
Now that's a big joke up here...everyone teases everyone "ohhhh! I see you finally found out what the purpose of life was...again! Hahahahahha! You
solved the big mystery...woohoo!" The joke being that every time you are in between worlds you know. And every time you go back to Earth, you forget.
Anyhow...maybe my next life won't be so bad. I've still got a lot to learn, but I also have a lot of lessons under my belt already. see you in the
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