An empty, infinite expanse. A weightless existence. Peaceful. There were no thoughts, no memories, no worry, no pain. Only complete and utter
serenity. Slowly, distant stars began to come into focus. The most beautiful nebulas materialized. I was filled with an overwhelming love that
permeated throughout my body and radiated out into the universe.
Something different began to overcome me. A memory. But not like a normal recollection. I was there, in my young body, in my young mind. Sitting on my
grandfathers lap as he told me stories of adventure. I was captivated, happy, and filled with wonder and excitement. I wanted to hug him, oh God how
I've missed you. Before I had the chance the memory faded back to space, his last words "Was your life worth dying for?"
I appeared to be headed for a dimly lit star far off in the distance that seamed to beckon me closer. The most beautiful galaxies surrounded me and
filled me with joy. Another memory took hold. Older now but still a child. I was on a boat with my father. The steering had broke. He was steering
from the motor in the back and I was the lookout up front. I remember how much I looked up to him and wanted to be like him. He could fix anything, or
MacGyver out of any situation. He was a superhero in my young mind. Filled with pride and excitement, I heard the words again as I faded back into
space "Was your life worth dying for?"
I was getting closer to the star in the distance. From somewhere behind came a comet passing me with blinding speed. Its tail glowed brightly as it
struggled to keep up with the frozen rock that was eager to get wherever it was going. As I passed through the trail it took me somewhere else. I was
in the woods with a BB gun. My first gun. A beautiful cardinal had landed on a branch. I was helpless as my younger self raised the gun and put it in
my sights. The creature was knocked from the branch and laying on the ground. I ran over to see its struggling body breathing in and out heavily. I
was helpless as the bird looked up at me. I was filled with overwhelming sadness. His tiny beak opened and a small drop of blood slowly ran out. "was
your life worth dying for?" it asked as everything faded to black.
An overwhelming acceleration rocketed me back into space. Gone were the stars and nebulas. I was moving faster and faster towards the star. It was
growing brighter and brighter. Suddenly I was surrounded by memories. All around me flashes of my whole life. Every emotion I'd ever felt pierced
through to my core. Love, hate, sadness, jealousy, pride, fear, like an intense cocktail of emotion pulling at my every fiber. I saw every face of
everyone I had ever loved and everyone I had ever wronged. I couldn't focus on one single thing but I could perceive every memory and feeling as they
pierced me at the speed of light. It was as if my mind had a mind of its own.
The star was growing brighter and closer at increasing speeds. The emotions were fading save for one. Love grew stronger in me as fear and sadness
faded. Soon I knew nothing but love. The memories were fading. I couldn't remember who I was, where I had been. Just love and serenity. I was so close
to the star now I would be passing through in just seconds.
Nothing but white.
Nothing but love.
I struggled to breath. Slowly colors materialized. I was looking into the beautiful blue eyes of a woman. She held my tiny body close as tears of
happiness filled her gaze. A man leaned over on her shoulder smiling. For now, all I knew was love. I don't know how I came here, the way was
overgrown. Every new child has to grow.
Was your life worth dying for?
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