originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: GoShredAK
I am proud of you for turning your life around Shred. It isn't easy, but you are doing it and will be stronger every day. Think of yourself, your
lovely wife and child and you will continue to heal.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart NightStar
your kindness warms my heart and makes me smile, i am not just saying that either
I feel like I am getting back in touch with energy, and the universe, I am syncing up with synchronicity again, and I have not felt that since before
I started screwing up again a couple of years ago.
so I feel like I can sense your pleasant energy ever so slightly(sorry if that was weird:/...I am crazy) my imagination version of you reminds me of
my aunt Amy, who is such a badA aunt, I wonder if I am at all accurate....
anyway.........I spent many moments ruminating in sadness about how I lost my spirituality.........seeing it come back is magical. I call it Jesus and
God too, but that is just me, I think God is the Universe, and maybe Jesus is just an energy being IDK........I just know Jesus has giving me dozens
of very trippy signs that defy coincidence that I will always respect and believe in him...........but I am not religious at all........
I have been here a lot.........saying I am gonna stay clean, and start working on giving my family a better life and I have always
failed...........The difference today I believe is, I am 30 so I have finally matured and I got all the stupid crap outta the way.......having a
daughter changed me big time! she is one now, I wish the shed could see her but I am afraid to post my kids on here, I am worried some phsycho will
hunt me down and bring harm........(which is why I am currently building my own AK arsenal)........
the most effective treatment I got was from my wife, mamaShred. She changed into the coldest meanest person I have ever known. She treated me with
absolute zero patience, zero sympathy, zero willingness to let up........It was as if she broke me down to nothing like a drill sergeant, and that
allowed me to really get my priorities lined up........at the time I was mad and sad and had hurt feelings.......but now I have a newfound stronger
respect for her, and I appreciate her giving me the tough love I needed to knock the sense into myself.
Now we are getting along quite well, she still very much has her guard up, and that is ok, cause I know in my heart of hearts I have changed inside,
moving backwards is now an impossibility for me.............
oh ya, I have a belief that I am receiving divine help from someone too...I feel it in my heart, and see it in the moments of synchronicity........I
think as long as I continue to feed the good wolf only, I will blessed with that help
ps...again....idk if you followed my crystal thread, but mamashred and I were trippin, as soon as we started giving them away, our luck turned
lol......I still have more! I would send you one! there are only two that I feel uneasy around which someone brave already requested............there
is some pretty ones, I would be willing to gift one to you, and others to other members...........just a thought that literally occurred to me while
typing this last bit....
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