a reply to: Jdennis10
I really want to make a sincere apology for my behavior to someone I mistreated.
First of all, I need to explain why this is necessary and why I need to be a better person.
I am a very gifted and talented person, I have exceptional communication skills and formidable analytical abilities. I have a vast intellectual
capacity and knowledge base to utilize. I easily become scathingly critical and will knee jerk react by cutting to the bone and aiming to devastate
My greatest weakness is my arrogance. I always think I'm the best, no matter how bad I might lose, I still quietly think I'm #1 and I'm not sure how
to rationalize that I'm not. I admit this is a major fault I face within myself and I apologize to everyone I hurt by my behavior when I let it go to
my head. I am a domineering jerk, and I need to temper myself. I will work on this I promise.
Although most people make me wonder how "ugly" I might look to them, I am sorta convinced I'm in the top 10% of the population and I feel really sexy
at least half the time. I just don't think anyone has noticed me yet.
I have unlimited opportunities in life to become a great success at anything I choose to do. I have what it takes. I'm incredibly intelligent
(sometimes), I'm romantic and passionate, I'm very strong willed and I'm usually super nice (way too nice).
I actually have it better than almost anyone, and am glad I'm not them dealing with their problems. My problems can all be solved fairly quickly, all
of them. I just gotta apply my abilities towards that and stick to it to see it through.
I often hurt others who challenge me because I'm clever and will twist anything anyway I need to in order to defeat them and put them in their place.
I even enjoy smacking others around for daring to challenge my delusions of grandeur. I realize this is a significant personal problem I face on a
I am going to try to humble myself and become a better person, I want to be Merciful and Graceful. I want to be that. It's so hard for me sometimes
because I always want to win. I feel like I lost already in life, so punish random unlucky individuals for my own personal issues.
That woman I have griped about, it's not her fault. I took advantage of her weaknesses after she rejected me. I was upset, hurt, and very bitter. That
is unacceptable of me and I disgust myself.
I want her to know that I am very sorry and I will do my best to improve myself.
I could have been a much bigger better person. I realize I failed.
It's not her fault. I took advantage of her and pushed too hard.
She has a lot of her own problems and I ignored that while I made her look bad.
That was so unfair of me.
I can take a shot, so I should have just took it. Instead I wanted to shoot back.
She absolutely did NOT deserve that. My shots are too accurate and too powerful to just fire indiscriminately based entirely off my insecurities. And
yes, I am an insecure person because of all of my past experiences.
I should be perfectly secure in myself. I am physically, emotionally, mentally, and Spiritually exceptional. I am happy with my body, my mind, my
Heart, and my Soul. I have NO reason to be insecure in reality. I would be a great representative for humanity if aliens came, or to other nations if
we needed a diplomat, or whatever. I know I'm a great Lover too, in every single way.
So I am so terribly sorry for being an insecure jerk and hurting her for merely being rude to me. I was rude to her by not giving her space to think
and breathe. I was overwhelmed with my desire for her and wanted to drench her in exaltation. I was simply too much for her to handle, I am
overbearing and domineering.
I learned a lot from it, and I hope she learned some things too.
I am sincerely sorry and apologize for my poor behavior.
She's an awesome person and I don't think anyone should judge her negatively for how she reacted. You have no idea how you'd react if you were in her
shoes. So please understand she actually IS a good person. We all make mistakes, especially me, I made a lot.
I really hope she can let go of all of this negativity and will be happy to continue posting to her Heart's content. I think we should all be friends
and I am at fault here more than anyone because I continually seek to set myself out as this ultimate person when in reality I'm no better than anyone
and in fact I am even more conniving and underhanded than most, I'm just so good at it I might convince you of my BS for awhile.
Don't buy into it. It's my fault.
I can suck and I'm definitely a jerk.
edit on 1/20/2017 by muzzleflash because: (no reason given)