a reply to: Night Star
It is a tragedy in a lot of ways, but it's dynamic.
It pushes me and compels me towards things I never would have bothered with prior.
I am in extremely difficult situations that are teaching me things about the world that I couldn't possibly know otherwise absent a first hand
experience. I learned what living outside in the elements what about, I learned about all of these different types of people and saw their problems
from a perspective where I had to deal with their problems for prolonged periods and could not just run away. There was no way to hide from it.
I am becoming industrious and discovering the depths of entrepreneurial ingenuity. I'm discovering opportunities and learning strategies to develop my
own networking community and spread my good ideas to others and inspire them towards better things for themselves. It grows, I am carried by all of
these positive interpersonal connections I create with people throughout the city of Nashville (and even here on ATS).
I am learning about all of the virtues and values that create a Good Life. How to focus on an agenda by setting goals and striving towards achieving
them, from immediate goals to long term ones. How to adapt and readjust to problems.
I wanted to exhibit Spiritual Authority and be awesome, but God needed to beat the crap out of me first to teach me a few things about how that really
works and what it's really about. That to increase my social standing I have to work hard at it and build it, and that I have to maintain my Piety
despite all of the temptations to cut corners.
I'm increasingly easy to get along with, courteous, show manners, am candid and friendly. I want to be this, that's who I strive to be, I need to be
that for me and my Happiness.
I have great pride in who I am and what I do and can do, and continually develop my sense of self-worth and esteem. I treat others with the sense of
Dignity I expect others to respect me with.
I'm learning how to work hard and stay focused, though for me this is one of the most challenging aspects of my life because I am strongly drawn to
comfort and simplicity, but my circumstances right now have no room for this so I'm forced to try my best and keep at it.
I am earnest and give my situation and other's situations great gravity so I am serious and solid. I am devoted to myself and others and work on
respectfulness and my patriotism. I am learning what a sense of community is about, and what kind of community I want to see around myself and know
others want to experience as well, one based on respect for dignity and integrity and founded upon Honor. A place where we can all create culture
through expressing our strengths and talents and be appreciated for it.
In this crash course on humanity I am discovering Prudence and Wisdom. I know better now than ever the value of discretion and exercising
I see the benefits of cleanliness and not only giving the outward impression of a positive appearance but to also ensure that everything underneath it
is healthy as well. Having a good diet and staying active and maintaining and improving my body matter to me now more than ever before, as well as
seeking emotional and mental health.
I'm stern and in control of myself and how I react to others and what choices I make in reaction to the world around me. I choose to be Merciful and
gentle and express Gracefulness. I refine myself, seek to learn more every day, become more civilized, and appreciate Art in all of it's forms - from
shoes to literature or music or paintings, even the Art of Nature itself from flora to fauna to landscapes.
I want to be an Honest, respectable member of society and I refuse to pull anyone down with me, no, instead I am determined to pull everyone up with a
helping hand as I raise my own standards and achieve betterment of myself. I am frugal and economical, yet I do not sacrifice my quality of life in
I am courageous and strong and stick to my plans as best as I can giving myself a great sense of purpose and duty. I persevere with fortitude in the
face of hardships and simply do not accept defeat. I'm a fighter and tough as nails.
I learned how to have incredible Hopes and a steadfast Faith in myself and in God and even the world around me despite all of these horrible negative
things I am facing on a daily basis. Every time I fall down I get back up and hit harder and faster because I am going to WIN I just know it through
every inch of my being.
I never let my Love die, I feed it and kindle it in this cold darkness I find myself lost within.
This woman may have caused me to go through pain and suffering for what seems like an entire lifetime, she was cruel and mean spirited towards me, but
she has also led me to become who I am by rejecting me. She's central to who I am. I am a GENTLEMAN because of her! She forced me to be Great because
I always felt like I was never good enough, like I always failed and was missing something. So I kept raising my standards and getting better at
everything that it means to be a Full Human Being.
Of course I Love her, and of course I am going to Love others and share with them and care.
By giving to others in Charity these gifts I have been blessed with I find Cosmic Harmony and am in concordance with what God wanted for me and the
flow of the Universal Spirit itself. I am confident and when I rejoice, as rare as it may be, it is deep and real, it is ecstatic! I am patient and
endure the storms with no fear. The stress of trials, travails, and tribulations doesn't break me it makes me!
I can discover true Joy and can give thanks wholeheartedly in celebration.
I am a man of Justice, Liberty, and Peace.
I am a Nobleman and I have her to thank for it.
Of course I Love her, that's "Me".
God's a great conspirator, the Plan unfolds wonderfully.
Now I must go back to my suffering and toiling, lol.
I have Great things ahead and be sure I'll share the fruits with all of you.
God I Love all of you so much!