posted on Jan, 26 2017 @ 09:30 PM
My first reaction was that I didn't care what others thought.
Then I started feeling hurt and alone.
I got mad and upset, I thought "I wanna burn all the bridges, every last one!". Then I thought "This'll be a scorched earth policy, the whole orchard
is ruined!". Then I even got a little screwed up and thought "I'll pour gasoline on the shed and toss a zippo at it, that'll show them".
Then I realized, "wow, maybe I'm becoming as crazy as they painted me out to be, maybe I am losing myself in all of this madness".
Then I went back to square one, where I didn't care and I was just hurt, because I realized the ultimate Truth of the matter - that the bridges either
never existed to begin with or they were already burnt down by the person at the other side that I tried to build towards. That the earth was already
scorched and I didn't have to do anything. That the shed was already aflame before I got there. I was just caught in the middle of a conflagration
that I had nothing to do with.
I woke up to the fire, someone already started it and it wasn't me.
I was upset because I found something I cared about aflame, turning to ashes.
I can't burn fire can I?
edit on 1/26/2017 by muzzleflash because: (no reason given)