So sorry to hear that this has happened to you. All I can offer is this:
The coherence of your cells is itself a function of the coherence of your relationships with other Human beings.
The logic is simple and obvious: our being is dynamically attracted - or to use a phrase of the anthropologist and neuroscientist Terrence Deacon -
"teleodynamically" attracted - to the way and manner other Humans self-organize towards us.
If you study this image, you can see that both parties demand that the other "recognize my capacities". It is a mutual, reciprocal expectation for
being positively known - cared for - by others. The flow of our body's energy (metabolism) is fundamentally related to the flow of our feeling
relations with other Humans.
There is no way for the Human to get beyond or around this - this is the logic of our self-organization as a creature, thus, if your cells are
mutating and accruing oxidative damage i.e. cancer (genes responsible for the generation of cancer are attempting to control oxidative damage, albeit,
oftentimes unsucessfully) it is oftentimes a function of an unhealthy emotional or attitudinal relationship with your own self and your relationship
with others - a lack of coherence in external and social relationships "feeds back down" into the dynamics of our body's self-organization. The social
is not outside the biological.
I'm not sure what that means for you, but the Kali avatar suggests you might not be as completely related to a culture of openness - which means, an
open heart - as you could be, and this is very essential to the health of our mind, body and being. Images suggest.
On another point: cells do not mutate randomly - this is a noxious delusion that derives from a $hitpoor understanding of how a biological
biodynamical system is structurally linked at all times - and forever more - with the environment is exists within. Thus, disease is a function of
poor communication - correlation - i.e. coherency, between the mind that lives and the body it lives within. Minds live in bodies - but also with
others, and if you listen to you body, the significance of Others to our energetic responses - something I call the "socia evocation" will say much
about how structurally integrated our cells are with our feelings with others.
I very much believe in the power of spontaneous healing, but it very much depends on the courage of the knower to open up their hearts - not simply to
keep living, as if to "trick" itself; but to acknowledge and become closer to what is true: our relationship with all that is outside of our physical
boundary as a body. Coherence in perception "feeds back down" into the body, providing the immune system with the metabolic means to put a stronger
and more robust fight.
Anyways, I hope I've offered you something useful - the fruit of my work as a psychologist-neuroscientist-philosopher. This is, in my view, where
future science is heading - no need for external means to heal ourselves: the technology already exists within us (but of course, its nice to have
modern technologies to supplement this original ability).
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