posted on Dec, 18 2016 @ 12:08 PM
I'm not really sure why I'm posting this, I was very superstitious before about letting so many people that dislike me know that I'm fighting for
my life. Pretty silly, I know... this isn't for them anyway, though I wish them all well in their own personal lives. I just feel like it this time,
Also, I appreciate the place of kindness it comes from but please spare me the miracle cures and chemo kills stuff, I trust science. Cancer is a bitch
of a disease and it mutates so rapidly (depending on the type) that it eventually outpaces medical ability to treat. That's changing thanks to
science and with a massive amount of luck I will survive long enough for my disease to become manageable versus terminal.
I'm 42 and diagnosed in Feb 2016, I went through the big bad ass chemo combo as well as chest radiation, preventative brain radiation and the cancer
was defeated however, lung cancer and especially the type I have (Small Cell Lung Carcinoma) is super aggressive and floats around through your blood
stream making it highly probable for a come back.
Last week I was given the bad news that I have new growth in my right lung and a fairly large tumor in my abdomen. I'm shattered to be honest, I
really was trying to believe that I would be one of the very few to have this type of cancer, not come back ever. The fact that it's also in a
secondary location now also means my disease has progressed to the next stage. With small cell they don't do stage I-IV, there's limited stage
(which I was) and extended stage (which I am now).
Tomorrow I will have a brain MRI to make sure there's no spots there and Tuesday I will have a needle biopsy for the abdominal tumor as they weren't
able to get a good sample from my original tumor. This will help identify the gene expression of my cancer and will allow my medical team to tailor my
chemo regimen as well as identify what types if any immunotherapies I'm a candidate for.
These tests will also determine my eligibility for a trial combo of an oral chemo (which hopefully won't take my hair again), this is a phase three
trial (science geeks will get it) that has shown promise to become a first line treatment with SCLC due to it's ability to damage/destroy the cancer
cells ability to repair it's DNA. Of course, this depends on my insurance approving the treatment as well. I'm now on free healthcare due to my
inability to work.
Now for the PSA part... Quit smoking! Life is short, live well. 99% of our grievances in life are petty and you feel like a dumbass when you're
suddenly faced with the endgame. Regret can make you choke, several times a day... everyday. Miracles happen. Positive thinking is good for you.
Science is good, support it. God is good too. So I would appreciate any prayers and positive thinking. Hug the people you love and tell them you love
them. The thought of leaving my son, my mom, brother and dad is unbearable, ultimately if this gets me, I get to be at peace... they will have to live
with the pain.