posted on Dec, 10 2016 @ 05:46 AM
I want to run something by the membership, to establish whether or not I am losing my mind to a greater degree than normal, or whether I am justified
in being pretty vigorously angry right now.
I shared my feelings about a woman, to a friend of mine, a friend I have known a long time, a friend who should know much better than to share my
feelings with anyone else. Rather than keep the confidence I placed in this friend, this friend decided to go behind my back, and communicate with the
woman I had interest in. This has caused my friendship with the woman in whom I was interested, to suffer a strangeness which did not exist before.
My friend, the one who betrayed my confidence, is now angry at me, for being angry about being betrayed. Everything is my fault, I am a bad person
for making my friend feel bad about doing a bad thing. They contacted me this morning, to tell me that I suck, to make me feel like a heel for telling
them straight that I am going to find it difficult in the future, to trust them with information important to my life. Their response to this, rather
than to accept their misdeed, and that recovering from it will take me some time, was to attack me for having feelings, for being hurt by their
Am I stupid for failing to accept their fury? Am I in the wrong somehow? Because I am finding it impossible to accept worth a damn, the passive
aggressive bull that I have put up with today on this matter. I am literally shaking in my skin, am experiencing dizziness, an inability to focus on
simple tasks, and I keep catching myself clenching my fists, despite the absence of a physical threat to deal with.
Have I just lost the last shred of sanity to which I was clutching, or has my friend proven themselves to be a total moron?