posted on Dec, 7 2016 @ 07:50 PM
When I was in 2nd grade a new awesome girl moved to my hometown. I was in love! This love lasted up until about 11th grade when one day it faded.
Not that I didn't like her anymore but, I hadn't experienced true love yet. Fast forward to a year after I graduate. I go back to my old stomping
grounds to watch my old high school football team play and I look up in the stands and see this girl. I literally said to myself, that is the most
beautiful girl I have ever seen. I got my buddy to go up in the stands with me and talk to her and some other people we knew sitting around her
because we were just one year removed from high school. Long story short, her and I dated on and off for almost 4 years. One year while she finished
her senior year at my old high school (because she move here as a senior) then on and off for 3 years while she was in college. Then she moved away
about 1100 miles. I flew to see her once she came back every summer and we would both end up together saying how much we loved each other. Then I
found out I had a baby on the way with the girl I was with for the other 90% of the time. Which I loved very much. Just not the "See you for the
first time, get butterflies, have to talk to you, can't look away from you, first time thing"
Here's the rub though, my it girl was just as amazing inside. Volunteer work, kind, loving, never talk bad about someone, delivered meals on wheels
to the elderly kind of person (all true). That was almost 18 years ago and she made me feel something that I never have felt since. The love in me
was beyond belief. It was truly love at first site, mind altering, never forgetting kind of love. Only time ever in my life. However, she is
married now with a small child and I find myself happy for her because I see her happy. Even though I'm not with her I find myself happy she is
So, this is where my question comes to those of you out there that may share similar stories. Me personally, I don't ever think that type of love
will ever hit me again. So do I try to be okay with something not of that magnitude in order to be with someone (even though there still may be love)
just not that mind altering once in a lifetime perfect love. Or do I keep searching for it knowing I may end up alone???