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Sad Year for Anyone?

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posted on Nov, 13 2016 @ 08:42 AM
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This year has been much more standing out, in that my quest for happiness has been interrupted greatly in 2016. I have always had losses, many stemming from the same decisions that I am making this year (all unintentional) that are causing this. But I have had 3 devastating blows that each rival the blow I had 2 years ago and 12 years ago. These realities have been setup in a way that I feel I am innocent in a series events that do not lead to another's expectations possibly, but then I feel persecuted, as the outcome of events I feel unjustified. In that case do I attempt to fight the justification? Well in 2016 each time I have not, a different action that I am trying, that has led to massive amounts of sadness, I mean until the pillow is soaking wet. The idea is that I let another persecute me, as I choose to die, similar to an example of Christ. Each time the other person would think I was a normal person, even while doing this, but if they were to reach out to me they would see that I am being a suffering servant, which is what I believe Christ taught. Arguing facts, compartmentalizing them, not facing them, instead I let them win, and in that action I admittedly lost. Well when I was attempting to reach my greatest goals and my heart lost, now 3 times which means I was at loss in spirit for about 9 months and 1 week in 2016.

I still believe in smiling and being happy to the very people that caused me grief, to the point of smiling while tears are coming out. And the greatest thing I know, which I have gotten feedback on here about, is that I know there is someone out there ready to love me, even today.




posted on Nov, 13 2016 @ 09:50 AM
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What a tough subject for most to even talk about let alone be unfortunate enough to have to live through physically. There's a bravery you carry that most will never even learn in life, but these varied skills require harnessing to keep an inner peace so to speak.

Without even knowing the particulars, I can pretty much guarantee that in all of these situation's a great deal of reflection has occurred... both on behalf of yourself and on behalf of the other(s) involved. Well, the blockage occurs because you are taking on their duties of reflection/analysis/a due care to the matters at hand. It is not a fair situation for one party of what involves multiple parties to allow for one member to carry to emotional burdens.

I wouldn't advise taking direction forward from anyone but trusting your knowledge and instincts. But, I will hope that you can find yourself within company that matches or at least honors the reflection and care you put into things... and not those of which are crafty manipulators of these offerings. It is a sad thing to have to build walls up on those gifts and essentially spiritually dumb yourself down to their levels in order to keep a sound care system for your physical being... it's a sad but sometimes necessary thing to do.

Since you asked about our year... more of the same for me I guess. I thrive at being a lost Gypsy yet been stuck in one place for too long now. Thankfully, I live today with tomorrow in mind and it keeps me numb to the events of today. I'm just gonna click reply and stop rambling...



posted on Nov, 13 2016 @ 10:15 AM
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What a nice and helpful post.


Since you asked about our year... more of the same for me I guess. I thrive at being a lost Gypsy yet been stuck in one place for too long now. Thankfully, I live today with tomorrow in mind and it keeps me numb to the events of today


I relate to your words above. They struck me that it could have been me typing.


Thank you for offering the words to the OP that I was unable to find to be of any help.



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