I am a 53 year old woman - I've raised a child of my own, helped raise other people's children - I've studied psychology enough to know that 95
percent of the way people behave has everything to do with themselves and nothing 'personally' to do with anyone else...
...so, shouldn't I be too 'grown-up' by now to be in such pain over something like this?
I'll spare the details - essentially, I just had a very, very, dear friend 'dump' me...we had been closer than sisters -
- she was someone with whom I had shared my heart and whose heart I truly believed I'd had a place in.
It's funny how you can sort of see something coming, and still end up being blind-sided by it -
- I mean, it's just that, having been sort of aware how it was 'trending', I would have thought I was 'braced' for the impact...
...but, man oh man, this hurts so bad!...
...like, it feels as if the tears are never going to stop, kind of 'bad'..
I'm old enough to be someone's grandmother (glad I'm not, but still) - surely I should be 'grown out of' being so vulnerable to such emotional
Anyway, really sorry to 'air my sorrows out' here -
- it's just....the only person I 'had' to talk to about things like 'the state of my heart', is the one who ripped it out...
Golly moses, I really should be too old for this crap..
edit on 7-11-2016 by lostgirl because: punctuation