originally posted by: corvuscorrax
I'm not desirous of material things or perceived success/accomplishment. Even simple things such as food and sex hold little appeal to me.
I often "pray" about why this is and what I can/should do about it to no avail. I suppose my god receptor is broken.
I've had some time to contemplate your response and try to put to words some of my deepest beliefs. This may be a long response so please bear with
The first thing that I noticed about your post is that you seem to be quite ascetic-- your lack of interest in power, money, and even food and sex
seem to be in preparation for that last leap into the divine/spiritual existence that so many crave. All of those things you mention are often a
stumbling block for so many in this world (I don't believe that they are bad in themselves but are very harmful if misused) and prevent many from
connecting with the Most High. In fact, if you look at Jesus's time here on earth, He had no interest in any of these. So you're well on your way my
I'm going to be using the analogy of parent/child relationship (which I think is an appropriate way to view our relationship with our Father) to
explain my approach to prayer and spirituality. I hope this makes sense to you.
The formula I've come to use for prayer is something like this: I'm sorry for (...) Please (...) Thank you for (...)
If you have children (or even if you don't) you might understand this type of petition. We are not inclined to give much to unrepentant children. We
do want to hear our kids say they are sorry before we reward them. So, if you are truly interested in connecting with the divine Father, you might be
well off to think about the mistakes you have made, and how they have brought grief/harm to God, yourself and others. This is a difficult thing to do
but it is also a step towards freeing yourself from the guilt we have all built up in our lives. Once you have considered all of these, you may bring
them to God, give them to Him, know that God is truly merciful and forgiving, and let them go. If there are things you think you can still right with
others, actively try-give those you have wronged the option of forgiving you, do your best at this and once you have done all you can, understand that
the ultimate choice of forgiveness is on the wronged, and rest assured that you have done all you can and that God has already forgiven you.
Once you have shown contrition, ask and you shall receive! There are many verses is the Bible pertaining to this, and I have found truth in them.
Some prayers are answered more clearly than others. Some (I admit) are not answered at all, or answered in time.. but I believe that God had all of
our best interests at heart and wants us to be happy. Again, you can consider a parent/child relationship in regards to this. We don't give our
children everything they ask for.. in fact, many of the things they think they want are not for their ultimate good. But we do give them what we know
(or think) is best for them.
Finally, show gratitude for all of the beauty and gifts you do have in your life. Open your eyes to the beauty of all of creation, whether it be in
nature, the universe, humanity, including your own self- your talents and your individual characteristics, and for the opportunities you have been
given. At first your list may be short but you may find that it grows with practice. The act of finding (or even seeking) gratitude actually
releases dopamine and seratonin in your brain so prepare for a rush.
I hope this helps. I sensed a sincerity in your post that made me think you might be open to connecting with your spiritual side, with the divine
loving nature of God, which is why I wrote the above. I wish you the best in your search!
I do want to share some important aspects of my own journey with you, since you showed interest in hearing about some of my answered prayers.. but
thought I'd give you a chance to digest and myself a chance to regroup. Sharing my most personal and deepest beliefs is a little difficult for me but
definitely something I'd like to do (correctly) so I'll ask for a bit of patience. I've had a lot to think about in the past day and am still trying
to find the most succinct way to share my own experience. There's so much to say..I'll be back soon!
The most important thing I have come to understand is that we are loved and we are created to love-- God, creation, ourselves and others.
I promise my intention is not to force anything on anyone.. I know all of the negative connotations that come with the word "religion"-- I myself had
an aversion to that word. Please take my comment as I intended, as a genuine response to what I saw as a question (how to "fix" that God receptor).
I look forward to hearing your thoughts, and to which points you agree or disagree on. Thanks for taking the time to read.
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