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Going through all those documents today brought it all back, viciously. And it reaffirmed for me why I've never really recovered emotionally, no matter how hard I tried to recover physically. It takes a piece of you that you can't get back.
Daily, I look for kindness, and can't find it anywhere. I look for a lack of disingenuousness, and can't find it. I look for compassion, and can't seem to find that, either.
originally posted by: underwerks
a reply to: tetra50
As long as compassion and kindness have a place inside you, they're never gone. Even if its hard to see in others at the moment.
Sending good vibes your way.
Going through all those documents today brought it all back, viciously. And it reaffirmed for me why I've never really recovered emotionally, no matter how hard I tried to recover physically. It takes a piece of you that you can't get back.
originally posted by: anotheramethyst
I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. A shocking number of people are just one crisis away from losing everything. I think about this stuff a lot, especially since I have been fortunate enough to make it this far with only a little help from friends and family, with relatively few crises to speak of (one major one, but no need to go into detail). I think the reason we all have a harder time finding happiness and meaning is that as society has progressed, we have lost a sense of community. I think the best way to make the world a better place is to say hi to your neighbors and make them into friends, or to join local groups in the community. I'm sure there are a lot of people involved in local horse fairs that might be a good start. When in the darkness you find you have no support, that is a call to be there for someone else, so they never have to feel so alone. I hope this helps. If not, then learn from my one crisis, and hug the person in the world that you love most.
May we survive our struggles, retain our integrity and provide hope for all humanity in doing so.
originally posted by: LesMisanthrope
a reply to: tetra50
Once you find what you're struggling for the struggle itself becomes worthwhile. But it is on you to find what you're struggling for. Maybe that is the greatest struggle.
originally posted by: MOMof3
a reply to: tetra50
I feel your pain. It is real hard to get out of a tailspin that illness and injuries can send you into in this country. Currently, I am finding out how screwed the mental health system is. You are strong and all you can do is one day at a time. I hope your call will be heard and answered.
Stories like yours, and your perseverence through horrible odds and situations truly help me, and I hope others suffering similarly, really make a difference.