posted on Jan, 12 2017 @ 01:38 PM
If you are still following this thread, I hope to inject some new life into it... I've been going through some interesting situations and emotional
ups and downs the past many weeks since starting this thread. I am in a particularly good place today, and thought I'd share...
Journeying into the internal lands I've found many symbols and seasons, sometimes flooding through in a single day, other times, I've been in
"seeking" mode, questioning, asking for "signs" along the way...
I made a discovery for myself, that you may already have made, or you've made different ones for yourself. For me it is not the first time I've
"found" this particular answer, more like I've spiraled around to a higher level of knowing this is true (at least for me). And it feels like I "get"
The place in the center of my chest, and my "core" whatever you want to call it -- energy center, heart, soul space, emotional center,
heart chakra, whatever -- feels as if I've discovered where I connect to Source internally -- not in a grandiose way, but in a healthy way. It is the
place within that is "closer than your life vein" and I've discovered there is no separation -- no need to throw out my requests like someone casting
blind arrows at an unknown target. I am the arrow and the target. Or something like that...
When I taught voice lessons, I would occasionally have a student that had no idea how to match a pitch. This was a challenge for me as a
teacher, and so I studied it. My brain had always been wired to automatically match pitch without having to do more than listen and repeat what I
heard with my voice. My students in this category, were not wired that way.
I realized that for them, they thought the pitch was "somewhere out there" and would cast around for it like I had been casting around for connection
to spirit, blindly, deafly, hoping to hit a target they didn't know how to find or how to feel. I would have to say, over and over "the pitch isn't
out there - it's inside you."
After a long time of working with people, being their sounding board (literally) and patiently helping them feel how the sound was already inside them
-- it was literally inside their brain and already vibrating in their ear drum -- and how they needed to feel it inside them selves, hear it and
resonate to it in their own bodies, and find how their voice matched what was already in them, I realized this process was a metaphor for many things
in life. Now I am the student, slowly discovering the resonance inside my being.
So, I feel like I made a giant leap forward in my own understanding of "resonance with spirit" or "light" or "Source" or whatever you want to call it.
I am feeling amazingly whole at the moment. I'm also having experiences recently that seem to help loosen up and work through old crap and am
discovering myself again in a new way.
I'm in Beginners Mind here - just sharing something cool that happened, like when I was in college studying voice myself, and I'd go in and something
had shifted and opened and I really felt connected to my voice, or a difficult passage became fluid, or something like that.
It may yet recede away from my awareness again, and I may be thrown out of synch and into the dark again. I may or may not see this as
beneficial long-term, and in other times, I may be sunk in the mud and muck, but for right now, there is a real sense of joy at touching that which is
both in me and infinitely greater than me.
Maybe you have had similar experiences? Maybe you have gone much further than I down this path. Maybe I will wake tomorrow and it will seem like a
dream I can't find the meaning of, or a song whose melody I can't remember...
Still, honestly, it feels like something that just takes practice.
Peace and light to you at this New Year of New Beginnings. Wishing you all joy and radiance, no matter what path you walk, nor what challenges you
face -- May the road rise to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back...
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