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Wow. Just… wow. Your post really hit me where I live. And, I think I may be able to give you some information. (Some of it may be useful, some
may not. But I’m gonna try, dagnabit.)
I have *not* had a fair share of paranormal experiences. In fact, I can definitively state that I’ve never seen a ghost, or a UFO, or
Bigfoot… you get the idea. I’m a Buddhist. I’ve never done an illicit drug, I don’t drink, and I’m in relatively good health. (Never had a
head injury, mental illness does not run in my family, etc.)
My experiences are, and have been, very similar to yours. It started in 2007 for me, and shook me enough to the point that I started seeing a
psychiatrist. And even then, I only peripherally mentioned what was happening, for fear that he would think I was having a psychotic break. (I
mentioned “memory issues” which could be interpreted as “failure to remember short-term tasks,” as opposed to my *real* issue of, oh,
remembering things/events that apparently never happened…) I’m not going to deluge you with the details, because, frankly, you sound truly worried
about what’s happening; I’d rather try and give you information as best as I can instead of bore you.
I’ve never considered the slipping/untethering paranormal, or occult-like. If anything, this situation got me interested in physics (particle
and theoretical), philosophy, and the mathematics of probability. (NOT pseudoscience, but the solid equations and inner workings.) SO… as unsettling
as it all is, when you get that dizzying, mouth-drying feeling that the situation that you’re in happened some other way, remember:
• Because of your unique situation, you’re better able to understand and appreciate theories/thought experiments/information that may be oblique
to some. (For example, the Copenhagen interpretation, Hugh Everett’s many-worlds interpretation, wave function collapse/objective
collapse/decoherence, the “double-slit experiment”… the list goes on and on.) “Woo” and pseudoscience sites aside, I guarantee if you delve
into these, the info will strike a chord with you. (If you’re interested, I can recommend some books and sites.)
Also, beyond the hard science, I started reading stories and articles about parallel worlds. (I have a huge binder of stuff that I’ve
collected.) I was interested to see how someone, even a fictional character, would deal with a shifting infinite number of probabilities and
constants. Some good examples include:
"Onion" by Caitlín R. Kiernan. The main character and his girlfriend are in a support group for people that have experienced parallel worlds.
“The Gernsback Continuum” by William Gibson. The protagonist is “haunted” by what Gibson calls “semiotic ghosts”… glimpses of a
parallel world built in the image of a 1930’s high-tech fever dream. To mitigate these sightings (according to the Wikipedia page), “…on the
advice of a friend, he immerses himself deliberately in the grittiest ‘realities’ of our world (such as pornography and news stories about crime
and war) that are at odds with the idealized world of Gernsback and others.”
These are just a couple from the bunch I collected, but reading the stories made me feel that the situation was less unsettling, and just more
unusual than anything.
The other thing I can tell you is this, at least for me: since it all began in 2007, it has never stopped. It’s varied in duration and effect,
but, it’s never gone away. (However, I can say it hasn’t been as bad as when it first started for me.) I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m
not going to wake up one morning with one of my children erased from existence, or to find that the Russians won the Cold War, because those
situations are way too far out of the realm of probability/possibility.
Think of it this way. A quantum system collapses from a blend of several possible quantum states to just one when measured or experienced. Your
choice to throw away the Minion drawing was (or should have been…) the pin-point that should have collapsed multiple states to one. BUT, it’s
possible that a parallel state, something peripheral, failed to collapse with the others.
Anyhoo… I don’t know if any of my rambling helps. If not, well, at least you have someone to commiserate with.