posted on Sep, 8 2016 @ 06:20 PM
a reply to: Martin75
Thanks Jess, that must have been both irritating and awesome.
Your poor Dad. I guess if Jack was his "little" brother, he probably has a "Jack time life time" of feeling the need to protect him and this was the
one thing he couldn't protect him from. That's gotta hurt big time and probably undermines any sense he has of any type of control.
Yes, today I was missing Woody and wondering how many other people do too. I also miss the way it brought the community together but then, that still
echoes in little posts here and there.
Thank you for sharing this story. You might post it in Woody's thread also, as people are still "discovering" this news, such as in those who have
been away from ATS for a while.
Also, don't forget that concept of so called "inappropriate" grief. There's a better word but it escapes me at the moment. I was often crying for
Woody when we was alive but didn't cry when he died except for a few slow rolling tears. I found that rather odd, but somehow also appropriate as I
didn't really know Woody all that well, but what I lacked in quantity I felt was way made up for in quality. Still, I was rather relieved that I
didn't break down when Woody died....What threw me for a loop was that some time later, when I saw Gordi posting in the Shed, I burst into gigantic
uncontrollable sobs that lasted for hours and in the morning, it started up all over again. But I just "knew" that somehow, Gordi's unexpected
appearance had just unknowingly uncorked all that pent up sorrow, along with the grief I was feeling in Gordi's absence, that I had not allowed myself
to feel, but now it had no purpose.
I think we sort of brace ourselves for "expected" emotion and can do so rather stoically as a preemptive type of inner strike. But then, we never
brace ourselves for the unexpected emotions of any type of love from another. Now, that didn't come out right. I can take all sorts of pain, but
beauty makes me cry like a baby. Beautiful music does it. Parades. Live music, even off key. The sweet banter between posters...sounds silly, but they
can bring a little tear welling up behind my smiles -- in a good way.
I think I'm rambling here so I will just send you a sisterly smile...