posted on Aug, 1 2016 @ 08:20 PM
I am finding it harder,
to take it any more.
Rowing towards the beach,
I am pushed away from the shore.
I have tried to take pills,
to make all the pains stall.
To help Myself move forward,
but am once again against a wall.
The more pills I try,
the worse everything gets.
Now there is a hole in My boat,
sinking further, getting wet.
I find I May never,
get Myself to the shore.
I feel I just can't take,
all the pain any more.
There is one Who would help Me,
deal with My daily ails.
But in Her eyes now,
I am only one big fail.
Will all of this ever end?,
I ask My self all the time.
I only want a normal life,
one filled with good times.
I fleetingly try to hold onto,
a Dream that barely exists.
Where I find an answer,
an ending to all of this...