a reply to: Chickensalad
You impress me as someone who is not the type to go out of your way to publicly make a fool out of yourself, so I think that this is worth the effort
of just a little bit of additional and charitable consideration. You said something that sort of bothers me:
But I'm not sure I can trust my own judgment on this one now.
That's very understandable, but this is why we verify. You said up front
that you had inspected it for locks and didn't see any. It would be
one thing if you were just scanning your memory of the event of walking past and wondering
what it was, but you were consciously and
deliberately looking for a lock, and didn't see any
. It seems to me that this was the moment when you would have noticed one, if it were indeed
there. But hey, I can remember how many times I have told my husband that the toilet paper is under the sink, and he'd be looking right at it, and not
be able to see it, because he would later explain that he was expecting it to be in a different place under the sink, so you need to allow for the
idea that it was there all along and you truly did not see it...which you are doing now.
This is why I suggested that you take another look and see if that lock appears to be new, or if it appears to be consistent with marks of aging or
dirt, etc. But "what if" your original observation was correct? I firmly believe that there is often nothing wrong with the observation but it is
of the observation is where we go wrong.
After all this public "reasoning" that has taken place, with you in the uncomfortable spot light, you still say that you feel baffled about this. That
tells me that you do indeed trust your judgment, and I'd hate to see you begin to doubt your own judgment.
If it's any consolation, and now that I think about it, I don't see why it should offer you any consolation, but I do tend to believe you. Years ago,
I wouldn't have, or I would have assumed that you were simply and understandably mistaken, and I would have just tip toed away from your post, but
then, years ago I did see something that was, quite literally, carved in stone, that was not there later. Now, if it were the other way around, fine.
If my husband hadn't been there and seen the same thing that I did, both times, fine. I could have easily doubted my own judgment...and sanity. I
would have preferred
to doubt my own judgement. But I know what I saw. He knows what he saw, and we are in absolute agreement about this. There
were two other, unrelated, events that were of a similar nature and were also witnessed by others. In one, involving a fire man, I saw him witness
something that we had witnessed on several occasions, be baffled by it, reason that it could not have happened, and then convince himself that he had
simply imagined it, all right before my eyes. But he didn't imagine it. He just couldn't accept what had just happened, even with me standing by his
side, witnessing the same thing. In the other event, a priest didn't witness the event, but he did see the unmistakable after affects of it. He didn't
say one way or the other what he believed, but with a chuckle, he did distance himself from me. So, I can relate to your dilemma.
I think the problem is, it either happened or it didn't, and whether it did or it didn't, what does it mean? Or more specifically, what does it mean
to you? You are perfectly free to accept the majority's preferred conclusion of there being no mystery here and move on. I'm sure everyone else will.
But I would offer you the opportunity of squinting your ears for a moment and consider that you actually have a choice of what you will believe here,
and for you to do so with the additional consideration of asking yourself which choice will be the less damaging for your own psyche.
My own beliefs have "evolved" over time, simply because the experiences didn't fit the current parameters of explanations and I expect my beliefs to
continue to evolve. Sometimes an old coat just doesn't fit anymore, regardless of how comfortable it once was. Therefore, for me at least, I've
concluded that I would rather risk standing alone and believe an uncomfortable new and mysterious truth than to believe an old comfortable lie, for
the sake of "appearing" sane so that I will be accepted by people like that fire man or that priest. I just normally keep such things to myself, but I
feel compelled to share this point of view with you. Hope it helps.