posted on Jul, 15 2016 @ 12:39 PM
Time and time again through most of my life I have encountered all kinds of social disconnection , and it's not often my fault . It happens because
other men are jealous of me , particularly because I am very good looking .
Today , yet another example happened , all in the blink of an eye , a lovely young lady's boyfriend called me 'what a loser' , in my earshot ,
after she cast me an admiring glance. I didn't ask for it , I didn't do or say anything , but I became an object of hate and derision for him , just
like that .
Now , this wasn't a problem , they went their way , I went mine , but , I can describe all sorts of derision which has hurt , which I have had to get
away from , or had to suffer , such as when I have had a job with someone who simply hated me just because the girls went coo.
I know I am not being paranoid , I don't have erotomantic delusions , in fact I've been told 'you look like David Beckham' in the past etc etc
I could cite loads of examples , try this recent one - went to the hardware store , the guy greeting people at the door , said to me , "they're
jealous" , even as I walked in the door . I was followed round the shop , and then at the pay counter , the guy with the laser scanner shot me in the
eyes with it , accidentally on purpose . I told him he should be more careful , its a laser , and went away not really giving a toss , but having been
warned , then I knew what it was about .
This kind of thing has happened again and again , and while I can't exactly explain to my friends what I am suffering and why , I am starting to
have really had enough of it since today . Yes I am good looking , sometimes I wish I wasn't though , no you won't tell me I am arrogant or
exaggerating , I am the one who has had to live with these experiences.
People do turn quite nasty if the girls they like make eyes at or want someone else , even if just for a few seconds ogling , nothing serious . I am
left with not knowing what they are going to say or do about it , to the extent that I don't want to interact socially much anymore , I can't take
having people treat me like some criminal who deserves no respect , because that is happens as well , I have in the past wondered why , but I know why
these days. Its too too easy to quietly stab someone like me in the back , so good looking , kind and gentle or not , potential relationships are not
The question is to ats , wtf am I going to do about this ??