I have been waiting for a long time to make this first thread, im not good with words and English is my third language.
What i think u should know about me ?
Im currently 27 years of age, male, from a place called "Estonia" the birthland of Skype or south of Finland just across the sea.
People here are among the most un-religious in the civilized world. I have seen myself as an atheist for most of my life. Some time ago(2 years) i
started soul searching due to emotional trauma, now i think i am a Buddhist since i agree with most of what they have to say about anything. I believe
we live a in a place driven by consumption and maintaining a certain norm of life because " u have to be better than the person living next to you".
At this point in time im not sure if i have everything figured out or maybe i might be loosing my grip on "reality" a bit. I don't have anybody to ask
since the people i interact with are my close friends who would consider me crazy if i came up to them with the subjects i have in my mind.
I have spent many years in these forums and nowhere else have i found more open minded people than here and i am real grateful for that.
Do i have a message?
I'm looking for a enlightened person, someone who has walked the path and maybe is at the end of hes / her journey, someone to ask all these stupid
questions i have. I work hard to see reason in talking to people except to entertain one. Seems like most people are out there only to buy the next
big thing or to follow the next trend, everything seems fake and really not worth it (for example: when i see a faimly doing some stuff together i
jokingly say in my head wow look another person transporting other people around for events and calling it a family).
Dont get me wrong im not negative or anything i am the most positive person ever. My birthdate reads 12.12.1988 and i feel really different from most
people. The term "awakened" comes to mind. I would be really curious if there were some people around who could read me my fortune or something
similar. Im really tall 207cm thanks to this i have learned to be humble because of all the s#it i have gotten through childhood.
A story from my childhood?
I deeply believe in the supernatural. As a child ( i was about 9) i went to sleep at a relatives house (couch) and woke up at night to see a dark
figure standing up next to me, being sleepy i thought it was my nephew. When i woke up in the morning and went to get coffe he just arrived at home
and nobody else was home, this still gives me the chills.
I have done meditation with great results, a feeling in the body where u leave everything behind, when you are finally able to not think about
anything and just let the universe come to you, the ohm meditation with the 432hz . It blew me away. The hardest part after receiving each of these
unbelievable experiences is the fact you opening up to it and you realizing just how off track and clueless most of the human population is (not
blaming anyone here its how it is).
I cant stress this enough but i have been researching for 2 years now only for myself and now stuff only seems to be on repeat on every channel i
know, its like i have finished that journey. feelings of something else out there. Since i don´t really have anybody to share this stuff with my
brain is slowly trying to tell me; "ur going crazy".
I feel like everything happening to me is for a certain reason. I think there are no such
things as "good or bad experiences" i think everything is something u just learn from. Time is non linear, at one time its there the next u only knew
it was there in your head.......
I think this about sums me up.... Hi !
If you really feel what i wrote and believe u could help me on my journey to the unknown please message me, since im running out of places to
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