a reply to: Dwoodward85
Good morning. Try to understand and accept that everything that is happening to you, within your brain, is perfectly normal. Think about this for a
moment. Something just happened to you that was completely unexpected, unwanted, shocking, terrifying, and quite literally, unacceptable. Your poor,
but magnificent brain has to process all that and it does so by searching within for similar experiences and probably can't find any, or any that are
helpful. At the same time, you are, and will continue to feel, the same depth of loss and despair. Now listen up and listen carefully for a moment.
Life goes on, as it should and as it must, and this includes yours. You may not feel this, or even want this at times, but your brain not only knows
this, but this is its number one objective, which is to keep you alive. It needs to keep you focused on the here and now or you can get into
unexpected troubles, like running a red light or forgetting to pay your rent, etc.
This will sound odd but your brain has trouble sometimes discerning between what is really happening and what is being imagined. A perfect example is
if you are watching a horror movie and a monster suddenly pops up and you scream or quickly cover your eyes. Was there a monster there? No. But your
brain didn't know that, and never will. However, it did its job and pumped you up with adrenaline. (This partly explains why riots erupt after ball
So, in defense of your brain, and in celebration of its miraculous, and sometimes peculiar effects, it's 24/7 nonstop job is to keep you safe from
attacks from the outside (and this partly explains why riots erupt on ATS) and to keep you safe by making sure your own bodily needs are tended to.
And this might even require a moment of forgetting here and there so that you can get back into that stream of life that you were once happily
So, in light of your having moments where you have forgotten for a moment what just happened, see this as perfectly normal, and even as a kind,
momentary gift. We would all go instantly insane if we remembered and constantly relived every traumatic memory. It is very, very important that you
experience these moments without expectations or judgments, either of yourself or of others. You are not yourself right now, or not the self you were
a moment ago, and in fact, there is a hidden opportunity in that for you to tweek your inner being, by consciously participating in that very nano
second of consciousness - even if you don't know what to do with it.
Be kind to yourself and know that you are perfect just as you are this very moment. Even sudden change takes time and there is no hurry here. Do get
the Rescue Remedy if you can. It will not hamper, but enhance what is best within you.
And drink lots of water...you are dehydrated by all those cleansing tears and you are no doubt experiencing a few tension headaches and
headaches are also often the first sign of dehydration. Oh, wow, how could I forget this, but you need to focus on Midnight. She does not understand,
nor can she reason what is happening. Playboy has been a part of every moment of her entire life. She knows something terrible happened and this is
confirmed for her by watching you. Your behavior and most importantly, your body language, will tell her if she is safe or not in this new world, so
here is another hidden opportunity for you to tweek your pain and grief into a nugget of gold, otherwise known as alchemy.
And, lucky you, ATS is always a finger tap away, and someone is always there. If no one is on your thread, go knock on the door of the Shed. Tell them
ClownFish sent you, and don't forget to bring Midnight with you. You might even find glimpses of Playboy there!