a reply to: Spider879
As the child of two very selfish dominating parents with (father) being extremely violent both verbally and physically on a daily basis i can assure
you that the child quickly develops a sense of hatred and anxiety that is not decipherable to its young mind.
This allows the manifestation of anger and ill-tolerannce that coupled with rejection from peers due to an inability to relate really messes with the
young mind, this results in a disconnection with reality that as you stated really does set one up for serial killer tendencies etc. However i can
also assure you that despite this the spirit within always yes always knows right from wrong and so a choice will need to be made.
I personally chose to forgive and although i barely can tolerate to look at or deal with them in any way i still understood that i needed to forgive
to regain my moral bearings and save my soul
This was a concious decision and everone gets the chance to choose, its as simple as that, i could see that other kids especially as i aged wernt
experiencing the roller coaster of emotions that I was and seemed so much more happier that i chose to try to be more like them and so although i
failed the focus was redirected from anger/hatred to a desire to do better a choice in hindsight i am very grateful for making.
Don't get me wrong i still as a young adult struggled greatly to stay out of trouble but i always new where the line was and can honestly say never
raised my hand offensively to another- ever, despite like your young bloke your describing seeing also having quite extensive karate training. I
learnt karate to make sure it would stop and never happen again.
However despite my extensive training it continued to happen albeit sparatically after about age 17, still i never raised my hand.
It continued as stated sparatically until about 24 when finially after he turned for the first time on my mother i set about him. ( why i protected
her i dont know as she would always lie and exagerate to make me look worse).
Weirdly enough i still to this day mid 40's feel guilty for finially turning on him.
So anyway it boils down to choice, you choose to hate or you choose to forgive.
Love thy father to me is about loving and trusting the voice within- do that with an honest moral compass and the likes of murderers and all sinister
acts would simply cease to exist for the most part, although clearly some would choose hate.
In closing i will say though that despite being in theory enlightened and saved i havnt ever been able to hold down a job greater than 18 mths ever,
ive had hundreds of jobs and tried my hardest to find stability in life but i own nothing, no house, no car, no assets, no savings and i live in
poverty barely able to feed myself sometimes as the all to often periods of unemployment like right now consume what little you have been able to save
in the last stability attempt.( 8 mths last job), lost it 6 weeks ago, no matter how hard i try people just see the sadness and assume sooner or later
there will be trouble and i suppose take the position of prevention is better than cure. Something i can honestly say i understand so therfore i
accept, i cant force anyone to like me.
So i feel your concern,empathy and compassion from the absoulute core of my soul but just because you see violence in that areana that doesn't mean
that its a catalyst.
Its all a choice and every abused child must make theirs-
SO A MESSAGE TO ALL ABUSED CHILDREN WHO MAY ONE DAY READ THIS------
YOU ARE ALREADY IN A ARTIFICIAL PRISON, CHOOSE FORGIVNESS OR POSSIBLY FOREVER BE IN A REAL PRISON, DONT LET THE F#@!ERS WIN.
CHOOSE FORGIVENESS AND KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD AHEAD NO MATTER HOW HARD THE ROAD.
Do this and cheat your destiny for you have already suffered enough.
There is no line its abuse, tuff love is 100% love and suport the tuffness is the burden of the parent to see past the anger/dissapointment and have
vision for the future.
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