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originally posted by: the owlbear
Sorry about the news, mate. I've never met you in person, but I feel that you are a friend indeed.
I've been there.
The best spell I ever cast I did so unknowingly, at first.
I Bent the Universe to my WILL. I was 270 lbs. drank a lot. And I decided I wanted to be MORE. I worked hard at focusing my Will and honing my body, dropped 75 lbs. in seven months. I did it for me. But also for the former Mrs. Owlbear. She dropped me like a bad habit and took the most important thing in my Life away from me. My kids who I had raised from birth as a stay at home dad during the dark years of the economy.
It sent me on a downward spiral. Ended up in a mental facility. Met a woman there...bad news, NEVER date anyone you meet in a mental ward. I was arrested weeks later for calling my wife names on Facebook and calling her to see my kids. Yep. That can happen. So much for freedom of speech.
BUT...
Less than four months later I met my soul mate. A woman who had given up on Love. I showed her what Love really is. It's a force and not just some biochemical reaction. I've been with her for 3 and a half years now. And the Love continues to grow and shine through the darkness of Life.
I've Willed lesser things into being. There is always a price for altering the Universe. Always. I paid my dues for what I received, and I don't regret a single thing.
Hang in there, non. The Universe is listening. Talk to it. Love you, man...be well.
originally posted by: nonspecific
originally posted by: Bhadhidar
a reply to: nonspecific
If you are "paying a price" for the magic you work, you are doing "It" (the magic)
Wrong.
Your belief in "payment" being necessary for "performance", that you cannot achieve your desired outcome without accepting and enduring some kind of compensatory loss is contrary to the infinite reality of the universe.
An infinite universe has no need for "payment".
But I get it, you are working with forces whose magnitude leave you in awe, and by your upbringing, the way you prevent yourself from becoming egomaniacal is by imposing this "tit-for-tat"
restriction.
You will be able to let that go once you realize that all that is actually required is that the overall dynamic balance is maintained; no payment required.
Not tit for tat but an understanding that every possible future has differences and I could not find one where he lived and we stayed together, I looked a lot and had to pick the one where he lived and the only person that suffered was myself, there were a lot worse futures out there and I picked the one that had the least ammount of impact on the world in general.
I've Willed lesser things into being. There is always a price for altering the Universe. Always. I paid my dues for what I received, and I don't regret a single thing.
originally posted by: Quantum12
a reply to: the owlbear
Wow you went through a lot too. Can you see your kinds now?
originally posted by: and14263
I'll contact you later but I'm here if you need me, in any capacity.
Speak soon. X
originally posted by: nonspecific
...the love of my life is gone, I am going to live in a friends shed until I can find somewhere real to live and I cannot spend time with my son until I do so but it is my choice and the price I am paying is worth it to alllow a good man and great friend to spend a few years in the sunshine.