posted on Jun, 8 2016 @ 07:03 AM
a reply to: pfishy
Is it in your nature to be happy in your own skin, or do you want to be more than you currently are?
I'll share my 'far out' perspective, pfishy, and with a little luck it may make sense.
I was adopted. I felt like an outsider most days and struggled in my relationship with my parents. Still confused by most of it.
Anyway, I began a wild ride of a life very early on. It wasn't until I had my first daughter that I felt a sense of purpose. I felt needed and it felt
good. To be truly wanted in someone's life. That amazing feeling in my soul only increased after the birth of my second.
Later, when Mom got sicker and had to come live with me full time I realized that (IMO) was the reason I had been adopted. The real reason that my
birth mother didn't want to deal with me (she said that to me and it was honest).
I HAD to be there later for my Mom. To take care of her until the end. There really was no one else.
So, the way I look at it is the beginning to the end was/is predetermined. My wild and crazy ride has given me the wisdom to lead (hopefully) my
daughters down a better path than I took and still be empathetic to their young/wild/crazy notions and ideas and feelings.
My feeling is that my 'importance' (existence) was/is for those three women.
The entire reason that I was born. The only reason that I exist.
Nothing more, nothing less.
The rest of the world? I, like you, have no importance.
I guess I am okay with that just like you!
Have a great day pfishy! The sun is shining gloriously here! Birds chirping away!