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originally posted by: and14263
My mum has been ill with cancer.
This weekend it all went tits up. Horrendously.
She's in a hospice. I've been with her for two days, she's on morphine and obviously not feeling pain. But we're feeding her water from a sponge, she's terribly thin, pale, half conscious and doesn't look like my mum.
I knew this was going to happen. I was prepared.
But Fk me it's intense.
I don't want stars and flags. I want to write down here what's happening and see what you guys can say.
She'll be dead by tomorrow. I've come home.
I know death comes to us all. I'm being strong for my family. There's a load of us so we can support each other.
But ATS, I think I need some positive vibes.
Many of you have gone through much worse. I feel for my stepfather, he's there on his own, but we'd do the same for our wife wouldn't we.
I dunno ATS, I kind of hope she goes tonight. I kissed her goodbye and she knew I was there.
This sort of stuff makes us stronger and is natural.
Jesus ATS, I'm strong and weak.
Sorry for hitting heavy here tonight but usually you guys really help.
I think I'll be ok, it's been a long day.